Monday, October 25, 2010 10/25/2010 12:43:00 AM

love it... or hate it....

♥France...
all say that it will be a very good experience...
yes indeed i learn the culture of france...
but no i dun learn much in gastronomy...
i came here 2 learn wad is related to my course...
n out of scale 1 to 10...
i can say i only learn 3??

it was not long ago that i found out i can only get 200euros from my pastry...
it was another fruatration...
i dont even know who to blame on...
taylors? pascal? frederic? hu???
we were promised to be taken care of...
and wad we get??
paperworks not settled...
last minute problems...
accomodation n food ownself settle...
then y on earth did we ever come 2 france???
at da start of it i did not really feel da urge 2 complain...
but then now...
things are way different...
coz i'm da victim involved...

once i'm out here...
i really do wanna make full use of it...
coz i know that i may not have da chance to come out again...
i have 2 work my ass off for years...
to let me go overseas...
n 1st time being in overseas...
da frustration came...

i learnt alot of things...
not related to da course...
but alot of things in life...
i made so many rules for myself...
that once it's not happening like what it has to...
i get pretty upset...
and alot has happened unexpectedly...
it sucks... Big Time it SUCKS....

i have to cope with it...
i'm always having tis bad luck...
bad karma i guess...
n seeing ppl get wad they deserved n i dont...
it's really heartache...
coz i know that i've put effort in everything i do...
yet i'm not saying they dont...
but i did wad i suppose 2 do...
n i dun get wad i deserve...
on d other hand...
i have 2 give ppl bak of wad they deserve...

oh well...
like my own rule...
if i dun wan that 2 happen on me...
i make sure i dun do that 2 ppl...
another sacrifice that i have 2 make...

heartache...
i need ice cream soon...

ciao~