Friday, September 25, 2009 9/25/2009 07:00:00 PM

i got a haircut 2day~

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ok rite????

ok so tat's all.... after cut hair.... go MPH n bought 2 books on potatoes again.... but surprisingly kinda cheap la... not as expensive as i thought....

NOW BAK 2 PROFESSIONAL REPORT~~~~ CHAO~

Tuesday, September 15, 2009 9/15/2009 05:49:00 PM

it's not gonna stop rite??

♥i saw a msg from facebook... telling me tat i am in group4 when da term starts... it's so unfair!! it wont stop torturing me rite?? it's not gonna stop at all... i was also told tat i am changed 2 afternoon shift... starting 2mr... juz coz some1 wans 2 sharpen up her skill.... how selfish tat could be... i have 2 bare da stress all over again... n i tot going back college is something i wish for... now either working or going bak college is not wad i want anymore.... cuisine studio is giving me unhappiness... taylors is giving me so much trouble... it's not gonna end after all!!

Thursday, September 10, 2009 9/10/2009 09:10:00 PM

my emotion is never like tis b4...

♥now emotional breakdown is so easy for me. i need some1 2 talk to, some1 hu can actually understand me... but, so far i still couldn't find 1... training had been very tiring... facing those french chef n ppl's attitude is giving nerve recks! can't they b nice eventhough we did something wrong? or juz b a friend instead of thinking highly of urself tat u're so great?

anyway... i jz can't wait for my last day of training... then i'll b free... then i can concentrate on my reports... now i dun even know how 2 blog liao... i used 2 blog so much of wad i'm thinking... now..... i dun even know how 2 express my own feelings.... struggling here.... haihzzz...

Tuesday, September 8, 2009 9/08/2009 07:55:00 PM

aiyor!!! y these few days so emo!!!!!!

♥real life oso emo... virtual life oso emo.... apalah!!! can some1 juz tell me 2 be a stone? then i can save myself from all these misery....

I WANNA BE DEAD!!!

Monday, September 7, 2009 9/07/2009 09:12:00 PM

emo emo again...

♥i find myself hard 2 communicate with ppl... no matter in real or even in games... i am so anti-social... =.=''' anyway... i dunno y i've been so emo... mood swing alot... i guess i juz wanna have things my way bah... n things juz dun turn out to be wad i want... shud i b thinking like tat??? but at da same time i dun let ppl know it... so shud i b doing like tat either??? i dunno wad 2 do bah... sometimes i juz wish i am sick... sick until i couldn't even heal... juz have 2 wait for da time 2 end peacefully... but i guess there are some ppl hu dun think tat way bah... they wish 2 live healthily like wad i am living now.... too bad but i dun feel like living sometimes... sometimes i wonder wad will happen after i am dead.... i guess alot of things will b solved bah.... even the happy n unhappy things... aiyah.... fk life...

Thursday, September 3, 2009 9/03/2009 08:08:00 PM

un-privatized....

♥my blog was privatised coz i have some personal issue tat i dun wan ppl 2 listen 2 it.... n now... i dun care ady.... i've been thinking bout other ppl n i'm not thinking bout myself... anyway... da previous post are all my anger towards certain ppl.... n i dun wanna let them know... so i made my blog private.... now over liao anyway.... it's gonna b a new me... (hope so)...

so i've been a bit emo these few days.... either i'm tired... or i feel tat i stressed myself up too much... i know i've been giving myself da pressure... n it's stupid 2 do so... but it's my nature.... i'm sensitive... n i guess it's correct tat wad my fren said... he said i always think bout other ppl... n letting myself suffer... but ain't life suppose 2 b like tat? thinking bout others... n thinking bout ourselves less?

haihz.... so i hate training now... not close 2 hate... juz... i'm tired with them... i've been working in da morning shift for so long... so far only 2 weeks in d afternoon... then later i need 2 take care of all production when da staff is on leave for a week... when she comes bak... i only work 3 days of afternoon... then training is over... it's gud n it's bad for me too.... it kinda proves tat i can work... so they r confident in leaving everything 2 me... but don't they know tat i'm juz a trainee?? i'm there 2 learn... not 2 b ur worker... then y not juz give me a full salary? coz i'm working my ass off for tis restaurant...

haihz...... jumble up emotions la these few days.... got work... got family... got maple.... argh!

3 more damn weeks.... u're gonna do fine eelynn!!!