Thursday, April 22, 2010 4/22/2010 02:09:00 PM

the world now....

♥i do understand tat nowadays da world...
is seriously in a mess...
ppl juz dun care bout wad ppl feels...
they juz cheat on their wifes...
n having thoughts saying "as long as i'm not married.. i can go for as many girlfriends i want"...
tat is nonsense!!

da moment my fren say tat it's not wrong 2 have many girlfrends at once...
at certain point... "yes i do agree"..
but in d end... it still hurts ppl alot...

i came from a broken family too..
n at certain point...
i dun call my family "a family"...
we dun communicate much...
n we sort of hold grudges among ourselves...
da best example is me n my 2nd brother...
i juz dun understand y muz he NOT answer da questions i asked?!!
ARGH!! everytime i think about him...
i'm feel like i can juz kill him!!!

so anyway...
i dun feel tat a broken family is a BIG DEAL nowaday...
so Joyee...
i dun even know u read my blog onot...
it's not a big deal...
wad's da point in feeling remourse about ur parent's life..?
y not juz cherish da moments NOW n have a better life of urself...
it's their life...
not urs...
so hu cares??
like me i dun care...
my dad still spend money on tat woman instead of us children...
wad can i do??
i dun even regard him as my dad anymore anyway..

so juz get a life...
a great life...
work hard for wad we want...
n tat's wad i will do...
n also wad i did...

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 4/21/2010 05:40:00 PM

long post again...

♥i have alot 2 post about...
but there's some agenda tat i couldn't post out...
due 2 some secrets keeping =D..
one day it will get mentioned again...

so anyway...
obviously i did not pms for laz week...
but my limits juz burst 2 da top...
until i have 2 sometimes give warning...
or juz keep it quiet...
mayb i'm used in trying 2 b da best..
n trying 2 make da best out of basically anything...
so there's 1 thing tat i'm not actually gud..
which is anything involves "driving"...
wad do u guys expect??
i only drive during da weekends...
i'm not brave enuf 2 explore da whole selangor yet...
it takes time...

so anyway...
at certain point it really burst...
until i really wished tat i wasn't da 1 driving...
n until i feel like juz off-ing da car engine and walk away...
but it's was not as fun as i've expected...
da next time...
not me hu drive...
i rather juz sit throughout da day...

so advance diploma started...
well not really...
juz orientation...
n 1st day in orientation...
assignment is already given...
n only 1 week of duration is given...
HAIHZ!!!

abit starting 2 feel da stress ady...
NO!!!!!
DUN SO FAZ COME BAK LA STRESS!!!!!
my term6 juz over...
i've earned wad i've strived for...
now... another new goal need 2 b encrypted again...
stress-nya!!!

so friday is our 1st so-called professional trip...
guess where???
the one and only Cuisine Studio!!!
a place where owns a trademark of giving ppl permanent tattoo!!! (scars)
n i have a few from them too...
till now it's still in a process of fading... =(

OMG i'm seeing Jean-Michel AGAIN!!!!
i din seriously expect tat!!!



*notes 2 ppl hu wanna sit my car.... DUN COMPLAIN!!!

Monday, April 12, 2010 4/12/2010 09:49:00 PM

tears are dried up... including my pillows..... =)

♥i've cried almost whole day ytd...
even when i blogged my last post...
i was crying too...
usually i have my piano 2 help me last time...
now i only have my blog...
n i got so tired at nite...
that i fell asleep while chatting with my fren...
when i got up 2day...
i was still tired n sorrow...
i was still very very sad...
knowing tat my mum wasn't supportive of wad i've chosen...
then i got so surprised...
tat she is planing on da cheque stuffs for my fees...
then i knew it...
god answered my prayers...

my mood were tuned bak to normal n happy...
i started chatting with mum...
instead of keeping quiet...
n my tears are dried up...
including my pillows too~! =)

thx 2 my frens hu actually cared bout me...
seriously appreciated it...

Sunday, April 11, 2010 4/11/2010 02:03:00 PM

wet pillows...

♥got use meh get Congratulations from Jury??
got use meh i worked so hard for my 2years diploma...
when i told my mum i got congratz from jury...
she's not even close on showing how happy she is...
when i told her tat i was 3rd place for the whole dc30...
she only reply me... "har? 3rd place only ah?"
a dagger juz pierced tru my heart...
every1's so happy tat they got congratz...
but i wasnt tat happy...
coz mum was expecting me 2 get congratz and also TOP STUDENT...

anyway...
before friday...
i was sure tat i'm taking option b...
then after tat advance diploma event...
they told us can go degree after taking AD...
then now wad???
got so bloody confused...
then after sorting things out...
decided to go for AD...
but i will b breaching my scholarship contract...
which means tat i have 2 pay them bak 50% of wad they'd given me...

until ytd i was still certain of wad i wanna take...
Advance Diploma...
tat was my choice...
n i was certain tat my mum wouldn't mind...
until 2day...
she came n fetch me...
talked about it in da car...
she's not tat encouraging after all...

i need to make so many decisions...
i dun wan to make anymore of it...
i'm tired...
i cried whole day...
non-stop...
until i need go shower to cry out loud...
i dunwan it anymore.......
plz...

Monday, April 5, 2010 4/05/2010 09:16:00 PM

Practical Finals....

♥
My Appetizer : Oeufs Farcis Chimay


My Main Course : Pan Fry Seabass with Mash potato, Vegetable Bayaldi and Sauteed French Beans serve with White Wine Sauce and Carrot Puree


My Dessert : Crepes Aux Fruits serve with Strawberry Coulis


Group photo of my dish in the tasting room


Another group photo

so 2day's my final practical exam...
i was seriously super nervous...
i couldn't sleep for 2 days...
2 days b4 i kept waking up from my sleep...
coz i was thinking bout how 2 present my dishes...
then da day b4 exam...
i was kinda tired...
lucky could sleep awhile...
but i still kept wake up...

tis morning my fren fetched me...
though i was their alarm clock...
ought to call them 2 wake them up...
after picking me up...
he n i can say his gang went for so-called breakfast...
but i din eat anything coz i'm used to work with empty stomach...
my 1st record was 12hours of 5am till 5pm...
worked without water n food with empty stomach...
all thanks to Cuisine Studio hu trained me for it... LOL!

anyway...
i brought quite alot of stuffs..
i was fully equiped...
with blender and full of utensils...
so my bags were so heavy that i walked like an old lady...
went str8 2 kitchen when reached college...
then str8 call my boss...
then he came...
pass all the things n stuffs...
bla bla bla...

then start 2 go in for written test...
when saw da menu...
me n him was like "WTF!!!"...
they repeat menu...
which was something we dun expect at all...

but then it's ok la...
did all da paper work smoothly...
after collectiong of answers...
i start shaking...
lol...
until i need take a few deep breaths...

slightly calm down after going in da kitchen...
everything went through smoothly...
thanks 2 my commis...
she's very very helpful...
da only thing din went well...
i could say is my white wine sauce and dessert...
dessert i can say i simply do most of it...
but it turned out not bad...
so still satisfy la...

after exam....
stayed bak 2 watch da last session...
and also helped chef 2 make soft roll with some frens...
after last session finish...
juz gone home str8...
wanted 2 join them for "lunch/dinner"...
but my fren hu's sending us bak sort of feel like going home...
so juz follow him la...
since i only tumpang car...

so tat's all...
one of my longest post i think...
kinda "kong-ed" out now...
kinda happy that my blender helped my fren out too...
gud for him...
all so useful for my blender...

haha...
alrite... i think it's enuf of stories...
gonna go JPJ 2mr 2 renew liscense...
ciao~




Sign Off~

Saturday, April 3, 2010 4/03/2010 08:07:00 PM

stubborn ass....

♥i've been surrounded by so many stubborn ppl...
hu dun think on my behalf lately...
some say this will happen...
some say tat will happen...
in d end both fite of wad will happen...
turn out nothing happened...

stubborn ppl never think on other ppl's behalf...
coz they only think on their own point of view...
it's juz so hard 2 please both sides...

so i'm having my practical exams on monday morning...
alot of arguments come out with some stubborn frens of mine...
asking me not 2 worry bout main course...
but worry bout starter n desserts...
these two...
honestly i'm not worried about...
i'm only worried about my main course..
coz by knowing wad's out...
i can do my plating presentation in my mind...

mayb ppl dun get wad i'm thinking then...
anyway ppl wont get wad i'm thinking...
coz i'm an Aries...
lol!
aries is always d opposite of wad ppl think...
tat's y no1 ever understand how an aries think...

anyway... tat's all....
need do more research 2 get ready for my war on monday morning...


sign off...