♥ Broken like shattered glass,
Friday, October 31, 2008 10/31/2008 11:59:00 PM
omg 2mr is my internship interview!!!


omg omg!!! 2mr is my interview~~~ went 2 c da hotel 2 know where is da place.. so tat we wont b late 2mr... haha... after seeing da hotel... we went bak 2 time square... supposingly my fren is da 1 hu wanted 2 buy formal shirt... in d end... i'm da 1 hu bought 1 shirt... LOL~~ every1 wish me gud luck yo~~ but not nervous yet oso.... haha~~ mayb 2mr morning only will nervous bah~~!!!!


Thursday, October 30, 2008 10/30/2008 08:36:00 AM
morning evli 1...... LOL


yo~ woke up surprisingly early 2day... since i have a borrowed modem(thx 2 phyllis chan.. LOL)... so juz on9 n do blogging lu~~ n i actually had bad dreams b4 i woke up... lol... not being chase by a monster... but it's a undescribable scene from an anime i watched earlier!!!! LOL!! weird.. until i couldn't go bak 2 sleep again.. sob... in d end woke up at 7.30am n had a cold bathe!! (as usual la... no water heater ma~) then went in maple awhile while.... got no ppl there oso... coz too early... LOL! might gonna go in again.. since i'm juz so bored... haha!!


10/30/2008 01:22:00 AM
basically B-O-R-E-D!!


lol... had nth 2 write... but juz feel like writing.. haha.... my handphone is so inactive nowadays.... lol~ hey... i'd gave u da freedom ady... for me tat's da best thing i can give bah... coz i dun think i'm da right gal for u... lol~ but actually kinda nice meeting u... coz u actually let me feel a lil' bit of being in a state of "paktor-ing"... lol~... anyway i wonder u read my blog de ma?? hmm..... tat's a veli big question....

being bored bored bored all da way~~~ HAHA!!!!


Wednesday, October 29, 2008 10/29/2008 09:35:00 AM
da decision i had made...


i've made a very big decision base on no gud reason at all... which actually makes me think alot badly these few days.... nobody likes 2 b lonely... n tis i know it... coz when u're lonely... u'll start 2 think a lot nonsensely... same 2 me as well.... we're still human... so know we juz need 2 accept da fact on how 2 let go although it's a lil' bit early... i may admit tat i'm selfish... n i may admit tat i really know how 2 hurt ppl then got regretted after that... then after that i dun wanna save bak da relationship... no matter it's family, love or frens.... i will not save bak until some1 says tat 2 me... coz i'm not tat kind of ppl hu gives in so easily....

i'm sorry of my foolish decision... i know u got hurt by me... but so as well as me... coz wad i told u b4... doesn't seem 2 change... i'm not a patient gal... tis is wad i get in d end... mayb i'm juz too selfish... i wan everything 2 b wad i wan.... so sorry for tis decision... u're not a bad guy.... n i know deep inside there tat u're as weak as any1 else... but juz so sorry that i had already made tis decision.. n i dun think tat it could b rewind bak... juz hate me for wad i had done... coz it will actually make me feel better...


Monday, October 27, 2008 10/27/2008 09:59:00 PM
occupying myself...


2day i've been occupying myself almost da whole day.... wake up... on9... then on maple... coz dun wan appear myself so often in msn.... then go cook lunch... cooked porridge o~ but got burnt by it!! omg! my face gonna hui3 rong2 liao!!! da hot porridge burnt my face!!! n got blister somemore... n it's pecah-ed!! coz i go wipe my face... aihz... anyway... after eating n washing... i on maple.... coz wanna keep myself away from msn.... until almost 10pm only i out from maple.... tat time i dun c him on9-ing liao.... aihz.... so i occupied myself quite fully 2day... luckily... if not i'll b thinking nonsense again!!!


Sunday, October 26, 2008 10/26/2008 08:25:00 PM
cooked dinner 2day~!!


my mama was not feeling well 2day... so i am asked 2 cook dinner.... so i prepared da ingredients since bout 3.30pm.... cut garlics, onions, chillies, fish paste, brocolli, chopped chicken, marinated da chicken, soaked shiitake mushroom, then cut the mushrooms... toking bout cutting mushrooms... i ter-cut mu sweet thumb~!!! sob sob!!!! so pain..! long time din cut tio myself liao... LOL.... tis time bleed oso lei~!!

anyway... me sis-in-law said my fried onion chicken was nice... yay!!! so happie.... da rest i think juz so-so bah.... at least 1 of it was nice..... not bad wor... i cooked 3 dishes plus white rice... haha!!! but took kinda a long time... need practice myself not 2 prepare n cook tat long... so tat i can do da same thing in my applied technology in college... hehe.....

well... after preparing... cooking... eating... n washing... i actually kept thinking bout da recent incident tat happened 2 me... still keep thinking bout him i guess.... but i know time will heal me.....


10/26/2008 02:47:00 PM
sleepless nites....


laz nite... or to say tis morning... i had difficulties in sleeping although it's ady 4am.... which i dunno y... it's either because i took a long nap in d evening.. or my mind is stuck with too much thoughts... i juz... i dun even know wad i'm thinking!!! it's so confusing!!


Saturday, October 25, 2008 10/25/2008 09:38:00 PM
will it b da end??


2day i finally tell him tat i wanna have a rest... n finally said it out... but... i guess i still can't let go bah... still thinking bout him... n i wondering whether da headache i'm having now... is it caused by thinking bout him... haihz... sometimes i juz wish tat he will say he dun love me anymore... or juz say i'm not in his heart anymore... but y muz he still say he still love me?? y????

i actually felt kinda relief after telling him tat... but at da same time... not tat happy oso... i can still joke around... but.. when i sit down quietly... surely will still think bout him i guess.... i need 2 get myself occupied man!!! any1... intro me guys!! LOL!!!

haihz... tat's it la...


10/25/2008 08:36:00 AM
every morning....


every morning... i will juz wake up automatically... i juz hope tat there's a msg will appear saying "1 message received"... but.. it doesn't seem 2 happen 2day... felt kinda down... if morning there's no msg... juz hope after 5pm or 9pm or even later than tat... i can get a msg... but ytd... after receiving 1 msg... there's none anymore..... how i wish tat i did not get angry tat day... how i wish tat i wasn't tat stupid 2 say out wad i felt.... how i wish i juz kept quiet n juz make things nth had happen....

sometimes i juz wondered... is there so hard 2 face me??? i still love u... juz say something i'll juz go soft... n forgive u.... but u did apologise rite?? n it was me hu keep saying i'm still sad.... yea... my bad.... shudn't have done tat... but i can't do anything anymore though... doesn't seem tat it can b save anymore... juz let it b i guess... n let time tell... in da meantime... let time heal me too......


Thursday, October 23, 2008 10/23/2008 09:43:00 AM
fights n fights....


laz nite... he went 2 a salon n have a hair cut... so i say i wan 2 c after it's done... at 1st he did not wanna show me... coz he say it's ugly... but then i say i wanna c... then he say will send me after he reach home... half n hour (or more) later... i din receive anything.... so i msg him... saying if he dun wanna let me c... then no need send... but he told me he sent me ady... then we started quarreling coz he tot i'm not happy.... i juz reply him tat if he dun wanna send... then dun wan force him lo.... wait he not happy then i oso wont b happy... but he then started 2 reply me "...." or "forget bout it" those kind of msg... which makes me fed up... so i did not even try 2 reply him afterwards...

then comes tis morning.... he msg-ed me n ask me whether i'm still mad.... then obviously i'm not mad... but i'm juz not happy... then he did said sorry... but i juz keep telling him tat now my heart is actually crying... he juz know how 2 reply me "aih... i dunno wad 2 say anymore!".... which again makes me pissed off.... i know i'm not suppose 2 get pissed off tat easily... but still i've been keeping it inside of me quite some time ady.... i juz need 2 let it go n let him know... i might lose him.... but at least i let him know how 2 i feel... he comes bak then gud... if not.... i dun give a damn(mayb not)....

it's juz so hard!!!


Monday, October 20, 2008 10/20/2008 03:16:00 PM
hectic~~


it's been so hectic these few days... so tired with all the ppl... so tired with my classes... so many things 2 plan which we actually couldn't plan anything for da future... but wad 2 do... we still need 2 plan....

juz finished my practical class in the kitchen... basically i din cook much... i juz prpare things n juz walk around da kitchen 2 b so-called "bossy" for awhile.... my gud fren being appointed as d head chef... his mood weren't gud i guess... coz they started eating b4 the food was served... he got pissed i guess.... anyway i did not eat... so i'm not in da wrong... hiak hiak....

i realised politics had been started between our classmates.... n sometimes it's not fun though... we were once frens which can tolerate n understand each other... but now it's like we have 2 keep quiet 2 make sure things did not screw up... especially frenship... there's so much of misunderstandings which some of them juz dun wanna solve it.... is it tat bad 2 say a word "sorry" although u might not b in da wrong?? it's mayb hard... but tis simple 5-letter-word could actually safe a lot of things.... say too much of sorry may also let ppl think tat u're not sincere... i've been in tat situation... but still u said it n ppl still dun wanna co-operate... it's actually non of our business anymore... rite??

i've been surfing da net juz now... went through frenster n blogs... then i saw 1... i think she broke up with her bf or something like tat... then she tortured herself by cutting lines on her arms... sometimes it's juz so stupid... by cutting lines n bleed so much... thinking tat there's a chance where da bf will come bak?? 2 me it's juz stupid! very stupid... such a pretty gal go do such stuppid silly-est action!! then i read another blog... she is consider as my 2nd degree fren... which is my fren's fren 2 b exact... she wrote there tat she's not gonna think bout him anymore... but i still think tat she will.... feel so bad coz it's bcoz of my sporty attitude... made her think nonsence... felt so bad....... aihz.....

my life is juz so hectic.... so many ppl 2 think of... even me myself have 2 time 2 think of myself.... me too is trying 2 maintain a gud relationship... n trying 2 put aside da circumstances.... i got 2 b strong!!

tat's enuf 4 2day... if continue might cry though~
gud luck every1~!!


Tuesday, October 14, 2008 10/14/2008 12:29:00 PM
my training placements in january....


i'm having my 1st training in january... it's for 3 months though... kinda 'gan jiong' neh~~ coz now all my placements oso shortlisting... sob sob... none of it progressing neh.... hope can get in to Rirz-Carlton or Bankers Club... cross-fingers~!!!!

ALL WISH ME GUD LUCK WOR~~~~~~~ XD


Friday, October 10, 2008 10/10/2008 12:08:00 PM
wad's wrong with me??


1st week of my 1st term has finally ended... juz notice there's even more stress in term3 than in term2... need 2 think so much on the service... entertainment stuffs... sponsorships.... clothings.... argh~~ a lot la........

these few days my temper is getting worse.... i dunno wad's wrong with me... as long as i c some1... it'll juz irritate me a lot!!! then my temper will juz rise up suddenly... mood oso turn bad suddenly.... i'm juz getting fed up in thinking bout others... i dun have da time 2 respect wad u all wan... sometimes it's juz coz no1 ever respected me... like wad?? only respect me after making me mad??? is tat even called respecting??? sometimes i juz need 2 b alone... so plz oso respect my decision la... i never disrespect any1 as i know for now.... in return.. i juz get these kind of thing.... it's juz so unfair...


Monday, October 6, 2008 10/06/2008 01:56:00 PM
new term has begun~~~


2day... it's my term3 in diploma in culinary arts... LOL.... so faz term3... have 2 worry bout fees again... HAIHZ~~~~~~ anyway... 2day we dun have any class since da 1st class is already in kitchen... LOL.... no ingredients yet.... so sad cannot cook!!! sob sob~ but 2day early in the morning b4 walking 2 college 2gether with frens... ady kena shoot shoot shoot by them... haihz.... early in d morning.. EARLY IN D MORNING~!!!!! being a laughing stalk again... so sad.... but luckily manage 2 cool myself down.... then everything went alrite again... lol~...

tis term... will b kinda tiring too.... 30hours of studying per week... haihz.... more subjects too... sob sob~~~ wish 2 show u guys my timetable... but i dun have soft copy of it.... too bad~~~

k la... tat's for 2day... every1 gud luck~


Saturday, October 4, 2008 10/04/2008 08:14:00 AM


so weird.... whenever i tok bout him 2 others.... i show ppl that i am so mad bout all the things that he did 2 me... but i guess deep inside me... i'm still thinking bout him bah... although sometimes i can juz 4get bout him during da day... but when i re-wind bak... i'm still actually thinking bout him le.... aihz....no wonder so fan la~~~


Thursday, October 2, 2008 10/02/2008 05:36:00 PM


there was a time... where i am so desperate for love... coz i never being able 2 have some1 which will take 1 important part in my heart... coz i ever see so many couples.. no matter reality n virtual... sometimes it really make me so envious... it really do... coz all these things never happen on me... i'm not attractive... i'm not socialise... i dun mix around with ppl well... this is what i am... i can't actually change myself rite?? i only can change myself when i really wanna change... but for da time being.. i think i'll juz stick 2 myself... i dun need 2 b some1 hu i am not...

my fren once say tat reading all those romance novels will juz make us have da craving of love even more... i guess tis thing is really true... coz i juz never really love any1 before neither being loved... i can get da feeling of love from da words i read from books... at least i still know love still exists... but after reading a book... i really do wish tat i'm da character inside the story... but i guess i juz couldn't b rite?

it's so hard 2 find a person... it's even harder 2 find a perfect person... but when love comes... u still have the suffering of loving some1... neither when u r single... u still have da suffering of loneliness... as wad we know tat everything is actually suffering.... some ppl got hurt then say tat single is actually the best... coz they wouldn't bare 2 get hurt again... but there's a fren hu told me tat although breaking up is so hurting... but when they were still 2gether... the memories are actually so sweet... i could actually understand wad he was trying 2 say... n sometimes it is kinda true...

but too bad before i could experience the sweet memories... i experience the worse ones first... tat is y i actually think tat being single would actually do better in this situation... there's juz so many things tat we could not predict... but wad i can know from myself is tat mayb i am meant to b alone n always alone... coz relationships juz never work out good on me... i know it myself.... it's juz so heartache..........



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