♥ Broken like shattered glass,
Sunday, November 30, 2008 11/30/2008 12:53:00 AM
excited, frustrating, disappointed, happy and appreciated day.......


2day... my group had a misen-place for our monday international buffet... i was actually kinda excited from start... coz i'm starting 2 fall in love with kitchen again.... so went 2 kitchen early 2day with my fren... juz 2 b a lil' bit kpc la... so go find kitchen aunty... then get da meat items... was so happy coz aunty's mood wad so gud... can even joke 2gether with us.... so happie~ but da happiness was too short... aunty told me tat we couldn't get da vege 2day... coz it's 1 day ahead for everything... it's too early for da misen-place... so frustrated lo... aihz... which means monday we're gonna b very chaotic in da kitchen... OMFG!! hate it hate it!!! tot can have easy life.... but still.... aihz..... too early 2 predict everything....

so since there's no vege 2 prepare.... we juz did all da butchery lo... so i left them do with all da things... i juz supervise them.... at d end of it.... i guess my supervision wasn't tat gud bah... until they screw my chicken up!!! wad's da point in cutting da chicken breast in smaller pieces when u need 2 boil it then shred it?? y cut da chicken in so many different sizes??? omg!! can do things so simply 1 ah? can do things without da fiche technique ah?? can't use ur brain 2 think 1st ah?? STUPID!!! anyway... i dun expect 2 get a nice chicken salad on monday... coz da chicken will b short... due 2 da cuttings.... n da soto ayam's chicken won't get cook at da same time... coz it's NOT DA SAME SIZE!!!! i am so freaking disappointed... can't they juz do everything right??

anyway.... after all da misen-place is done... helped group 2 to do crepe (pancake) for their flambe(flaming) on monday.... was tired.... but fun.... din do much... juz let them do n i juz arrange da crepes properly n store it.... then went for lunch with Chef Rex.... tok alot o.... all bout his experience n his point of views... so nice... hard 2 socialise with them... coz they know so many things... n i'm juz a small little character there... n juz able 2 listen n not able 2 say anything... coz i dunno much things.... in d end.... Chef Rex paid for our meal... felt so bad... coz we're da ones hu r suppose 2 treat him.... furthermore he n another chef... which is Chef Vincent gave us so much of opportunity n letting us learn things.... really felt greatful 2 them.... one day muz find both of them 2 treat them... hehe.....

so after lunch... went home... then suddenly... received a call from Chef Vincent... saying he need ppl for stewarding (wash plates de ppl)... i dun mind doing work in da stewarding... coz i still love da kitchen... so i juz accept da offer... then called another 2 frens 2 join us.... was so happy coz we actually c how our seniors work as a team... they were so co-operative... until i wish my group were like them... they did a marvellous job in da kitchen... all da food were picked up on time.... so happie for them.....

when everything was done... they went out for some pictures n singings... they called us 2 join... but we rejected... coz dun feel nice ma... not in their group oso de.... but when they came bak in da kitchen... they gave us cakes 2 eat... automatically u know.. so nice... then they were toking toking... suddenly... a loud "THANK YOU!" came out... n they were facing us.... was so shocked at 1st... coz we were never been appreciated like tat b4... we were juz a small character in washing da plates n giving them enuf plates 2 reuse... they appreciated alot n treated us like we're one of them... it's juz so nice being treated like tat.... REALLY THX ALOT FOR GIVING SUCH APPRECIATION~ DC27!!! I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER U GUYS~!! they even came 2 us... said thank u personally n shaked hands with us.... it's juz so nice.... even Chef Vincent come n say thank u 2 us.... n shaked hands too.... 2day really is a happie day... although it started abit rough....

how i wish i could juz do thing kind of things every week.... may it happen miraculously bah!! tis is for 2day... being chased 2 write tis blog faster... coz in cycer... n it's quite late... so gud nite guys!!!


Wednesday, November 26, 2008 11/26/2008 10:56:00 PM
我的坏脾气毛病又来了!!!


最近又是怎么了呢??? 老毛病回来了呀!!! 自从取乐A1当part timer... 脾气就变坏了!! 刚刚也有了一下... 就觉得朋友的声音好难听,好乱,好像对他们发脾气!! 但还是吞了下去... 有时真的觉得他们好烦啊! 真得很想骂他们一顿... 但谁知我是那么的胆小吧! 哎........


11/26/2008 04:46:00 PM
Oenology~


2day had oenology class~ so 2day we have 2 present our wine tat we made ourselves.... our wine had da nicest colour... n it's also da clearest~~ so happie~!! i named it Rouge Framboise... it's in french... which means raspberry red... it's significant to our wine's colour o~ then Mr. Vinesh told every1 tat our colour is nice... of coz nice la~ we mix da grapes ma~ got black n red grapes... other ppl do de wine ah... all use da red colour grapes... then it turn out 2 b pink colour wine... LOL! there's another group da same as us.... but theirs were unsuccessfull.... coz they did laz minute due 2 spoilage for da 1st batch... (luckily)... then tat's all for it... juz so happy tat our wine has da nicest colour... Yippie~!!

after all presentation... our lecturer treated us with red wine n rose wine.... it's juz so nice..!!! although i dun drink... but still... get 2 drink nice wines r still veli fortunate.... da smell is juz so strong until i can still remember it..... but still i love champagne/sparkling wine... coz it's juz so sweet n nice.... n FIZZY~~~ get 2 tried it few weeks ago... lecturer brought 1 bottle n share it with all of us... hehe....

okie~ tat's all for 2day.... needa study for test 2mr... GUD LUCK 2 ME~~~


11/26/2008 04:44:00 PM
*誰可以當男朋友,誰只能當普通朋友。*


普通朋友:半夜會找妳打BBS聊天到很晚。

男朋友:半夜看妳還在BBS上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。

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普通朋友:他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。

男朋友:他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。

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普通朋友:在你生病時,會講好話關心妳。

男朋友:在你生病時,他會關心到你很煩,而且逼你去看醫生。

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普通朋友:他會盡量說好話來討好妳,妳會覺得他很棒。

男朋友:他所說的話,都是關心妳的!但通常像是在命令妳,妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。

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普通朋友:他什麼事情都會配合著你,只要你高興。

男朋友:他會幫你辨別是非,但你會覺得他管太多。

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普通朋友:他會說他要給你最大的幸福。

男朋友:他只能給你保證,妳跟他在一起,他是最快樂的。

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普通朋友:他會幫你買消夜,送宵夜,載你上下課。

男朋友:他會幫你買宵夜,不過他會提醒你,吃什麼比較健康。他會載你上下課,不過要他有順路,因為他不能為你而翹課。 因為他翹課,他成績便會不好,成績不好不會有好工作。 那你們將來日子怎麼會好過,他會想的很遠。

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普通朋友:他只有想到現在。

男朋友:他已經預見將來,該怎麼自我努力,好給你幸福。



Tuesday, November 25, 2008 11/25/2008 10:00:00 AM
爱的感觉,因还有我在默默的祝福着你~


爱的感觉,总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜,

总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担,

你终於不再孤单了,至少有一个人想著你、恋著你,

不论做什么事情,

只要能一起,就是好的,

但是慢慢的,随著彼此的认识愈深,

你开始发现了对方的缺点,

於是问题一个接著一个发生,

你开始烦、累,甚至想要逃避,

有人说爱情就像在捡石头,

总想捡到一个适合自己的,

但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢?

她适合你,那你又适合她吗?

其实,爱情就像磨石子一样,

或许刚捡到的时候,你不是那么的满意,

但是记住人是有弹性的,

很多事情是可以改变的,

只要你有心、有勇气,

与其到处去捡未知的石头,

还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨,你开始磨了吗?

很多人以为是因为感情淡了,

所以人才会变得懒惰。

错!

其实是人先被惰性征服,

所以感情才会变淡的。

**在某个聚餐的场合, 有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好, 这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前,当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候,她说要吃十只虾,我就剥二十只给她! 现在,如果她要我帮她剥虾壳,开玩笑!我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了,还剥虾壳咧!

**听到了吗?明白了吗?

难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱,

却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。

因为,婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都

懒得讲话、

懒得倾听、

懒得制造惊喜、

懒得温柔体贴,

那么夫妻或是情人之间,

又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢?

所以请记住:

有活力的爱情,

是需要适度殷勤灌溉的,

谈恋爱,更是不可以偷懒的喔!

**有一对情侣,相约下班後去用餐、逛街,可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了, 当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟, 他的男朋友很不高兴的说: 你每次都这样,现在我甚么心情也没了, 我以後再也不会等你了! 刹那间,女孩终於决堤崩溃了, 她心里在想:或许,他们再也没有未来了

**同样的在同一个地点,另一对情侣也面临同样的处境; 女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头,他的男朋友说:我想你一定忙坏了吧! 接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水,并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上, 此刻,女孩流泪了, 但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。 你体会到了吗?

**其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间!

爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时, 很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了!

懂了吗?

当有个人爱上你,而你也觉得他不错。

那并不代表你会选择他。

**我们总说:我要找一个你很爱很爱的人,才会谈恋爱。

但是当对方问你,怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候,

你可能无法回答他,因为你自己也不知道。

**没错,我们总是以为,我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。

可是後来,当我们猛然回首,我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。

假如从来没有开始,你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢?

其实,很爱很爱的感觉,是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。

或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣,

但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了,只是你没发觉而已呢?

所以,还是仔细看看身边的人吧!

他或许已经等你很久喽!

**当你爱一个人的时候,爱到八分绝对刚刚好。

所有的期待和希望都只有七八分;剩下两三分用来爱自己。

如果你还继续爱得更多,很可能会给对方沉重的压力,让彼此喘不过气来, 完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

**所以请记住,

喝酒不要超过六分醉,

吃饭不要超过七分饱,

爱一个人不要超过八分

**那天朋友问我:到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢?

我笑著跟他说:其实每个人的爱情观都不一样,说对了叫开导,但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那就糟糕了!

**如果你也正在为爱迷惘,或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示:

爱一个人,

要了解,也要开解;

要道歉,也要道谢;

要认错,也要改错;

要体贴,也要体谅;

是接受,而不是忍受;

是宽容,而不是纵容;

是支持,而不是支配;

是慰问,而不是质问;

是倾诉,而不是控诉;

是难忘,而不是遗忘;

是彼此交流,而不是凡事交代;

是为对方默默祈求, 而不是向对方诸多要求;

可以浪漫,但不要浪费;

可以随时牵手,但不要随便分手。

这封e-mail真是形容了全部我所经验过的...真神奇!!



Monday, November 24, 2008 11/24/2008 04:30:00 PM
mood swing!!


omg! i've been having mood swing since saturday!!! saturday... i did a part time job... n it's suppose 2 b in da hotel itself.... it's an even called "A1 racing"... A1 is juz 1 rank below of F1.... so we were actually quite excited... n oso din expect 2 go to sepang.... some of my frens stayed at my house... coz da pick-up is at college.... so we woke up at 5 something... i woke up at 4... coz need 2 prepare breakfast for them.... so after getting ready n everything... we go college n wait for da van 2 fetch us 2 Equatorial Hotel.... unfortunately da van went 2 sunway college n taylor's main campus... LOL! so in d end da driver picked us up quite late..... so when reach da hotel.... we were then told tat we're going 2 sepang... coz they gave us a wrist band.. which is a pass for us 2 go in there as helper.... so all of us were very excited.... but mayb we were excited for too faz... coz when we reached there.... we work like shit! carry tis n carry tat... until my frens had blisters all over their feet....

due to da tiredness... i had mood swing... after coming bak from work... reached home... i was quiet all da time... coz i juz dun feel like toking... hungry but dun wanna eat... those kind.... small little things will juz make me get mad.... n oso get annoyed... so i rather keep quiet n do my stuffs..... so on sunday... i'm still having mood swing... coz i'm still tired... then go 2 sepang like as usual... juz tat da driver went 2 KLIA 1st coz made a wrong turn.... sunday i worked quite hard... walking around 2 carry da food n refilling everything.... while i think my other frens r juz enjoying themselves... coz all of them went 2 d other side... n left only 4 of us 2 do da rest of the job... n... i juz dunno y.... juz kinda buay song them... i'll keep tat inside me coz dun feel like saying it here......

then it comes 2 2day.... our service was overall sucks! i know i din do anything n juz know how 2 complain.... but wad i can comment is i was not told 2 do anything for da service n so on... i dunno da layout is how... i dunno wad 2 decorate.... i know nothing.... coz there's no meeting held.... then everything was a mess coz all of them r not doing their job properly....all they know is 2 wonder around n chit-chat... dunno how 2 do da work n so on..... when it comes 2 clearing n everything... all juz know how 2 cabut as usual... i really dunno how 2 tell them.... anyway... they wont listen....

then when it comes 2 kitchen.... i was kinda really pissed off... coz wad shit misen-place did they do?!?!?!? juz peeling?!?!?! cuttings lei?!?! no fiche technique then how u all do misen-place?!?!? so smart until can memorise everything?!?!?! smart asses!!! until da food was served late... da guest have 2 wait for bout 45mins coz da settings for da buffet had problems!! wad da!! i'm speechless!!

dun wan continue anymore... so frustrating!!


Sunday, November 16, 2008 11/16/2008 02:05:00 PM
long long time ago.................. -part2-


lol... so 2day went for another misen-place... for my buffet service 2mr.... after getting some ingredients from aunty... then start do da butchery stuff.... AiDeLian do chicken... FeiLaiSi do chicken breast... Aaron Tang n me do fish.... i scaled da fish till got scale on my hair sia! anyway... after some of da meat finish... continue cut lamb/beef... dunno how 2 differentiate... lol... but i din manage 2 cut da lamb... let FeiLaiSi, AiDeLian, Ah Tan did it... i juz there 2 teach them how 2 cut only... hehe... so busy only me... i wonder i'm da aboyeur or da staff.... coz i keep doing aboyeur stuff (i think)... keep ordering him (Vincent) 2 do tis do tat... get tis get tat... write tis write tat... cannot do like tis... muz do like tat.... LOL.!! so busy... until my fish oso cut cannot finish.....

after butchery done... start do vege.... i seldom help much... juz tell them tis 1 cut like tis... tis 1 cut like tat... oh ya.... i cut a BIG packet of LONG BEANS!!! OMG!!! it's like so much!! aihz.... cut until back oso pain..... anyway managed 2 finish it.... helped by a few ppl.... but finish not in time... suppose 2 finish at 12... end up finish at 1... lol! then come bak home... now.... at 1st not hungry... now a bit hungry... but dun care... DIET~..

k.... end of story... chaoz~


11/16/2008 12:33:00 AM
long long time ago........................................


long long time ago.... which was actually tis thursday... =.=''' my busy life start again ever since my term 1.... so my pastry class started at 2... went there at 1.30... so surprise tat i was the 1st one there... lol... coz everytime oso got ppl reach earlier than me.... then slowly 1 by 1 came... but there was only 8 ppl.... n da whole class has 18 ppl!! i was even so surprise then my so-called lovely partner din come... bare in mind bout da "so-called" word yar~ but anyway i dun care la... those ppl come or dun come oso not my problem... wonder r they even serious bout learning anything oso... so we did Gulab Jamon.. which is fried dough soaked in sugar syrup!! super sweet... no wonder no ppl wanna eat it.....

then after everything done in da class... suddenly my classmate call for my name... asking me wanna go help Chef Norizan under her request... so i said "yes" of coz... coz i like 2 pat around ma~ lol... in d end.. my another fren (Mr. Adrian Lai aka AiDeLian) join too... juz feel so bad coz chef keep calling him 2 carry all those heavy pots! hahahaahhaha.... da misen-place (preparation) wasn't much... i was only actually called 2 peel daun kesum from da stem only... LOL!! then juz cling wrap all da things... after finishing everything.. go makan... then go pyramid... buy some latex glove... coz da previous guy (aidelian) cut-ed his palm earlier b4... so buy glove lo....

tat's da end of thursday........


come 2 friday... morning go theory classes.... had english test lu.... write essay... which i think i wrote crap... lol... screw it anyway~!!! ^^ then around 1..... go in kitchen again....... help Chef Norizan on her food for da function... which is actually Parents' Day... they had buffet... chef was in-charged on asian food... so she cooked Asam laksa... Curry noodle... and Ayam Percik... of coz kelate punyo aye percik lebih sedap lah!! we did da remaining misen-place... i do da blanching of vege... but my kelian de fren (Miss Phyllis Chan aka FeiLaiSi) was asked 2 JULLIENE (fine strips) of all da other vege (lettuce, chilli, onions, cucumber, pineapple)... hahaha!!! so sad~ but i helped her a bit larh of coz..... then i did some plating.... juz put da food on a soup plate each... then cling film it... (interrupt interrupt) got 1 scene.... while i was julliening da vege... suddenly i heard my "lovely" Chef Federic's voice... asking us wad time will us go kitchen again on saturday (which is 2day or practically ytd coz past 12 ady).. so i was searching for his voice... looking infront.. on da right... da back.... then 2 my left.............. he was beside me!!! n scared da hell of my life.... i gave a small scream though... his face was so near me... =.=.. then laughed non-stop... aihz... tis Chef Federic ah.... haihz............. tat's all for me n ms. phyllis chan de job~ but another kelian de fren which is AiDeLian... he need 2 skin fry ALL the chicken.... then oven it.... LOL!! kelian kelian~ in d end not much ppl eat oso~.. =p sebab kure kelate punyo flavour!! hahaha!

then we need 2 jaga da food lo... finish then need refill la those kind.... after tat go eat together with lecturers u know.... mostly all da lecturers know use ady... coz we keep walk here walk there.... then joke with them... even da kitchen ppl oso know us.... but 1st of all... muz kaotim da kitchen aunty... coz she always so fierce n lansi... but almost kaotim ady... haha.... next time wan more ingredients then easy job la~ hiak hiak... then go swimming.... only 4 of us... 2gether with da 2 frens mention above... n another classmate... we call him Ah Tan.... then another fren FFK us!! argh!!! our Mr Roy~!! feizai~ FFK so many times... haihz.... we swin under the rain somemore lei... so syiok! but da rain wasn't heavy enuf.... after swimming... Ah Tan went bak his condo... Aidelian go bak his house... left me n miss phyllis... we walk 1 big round n enjoy da breeze while we're still soaking WET~ then saw fireworks... if not mistaken it's from sunway pyramid... so we were like 2 crazy galBolds... soaking wet... standing beside da road... standing under da rain... n watch fireworks... LOL!! after da fireworks.... went bak home... we took a bathe... then not long later... she went home.... then i can't sleep... so watch anime... a few episodes liao... then only decided 2 sleep... (although i'm not sleepy =.=)

tat's da end of friday~


now come 2day~!!! or ytd 2 b exact... woke up... then go college.... tis time there's a so called CPE class which i dunno wad it stands for.... did some setting of station... n misen-place (again).... then slowly more ppl came.... suppose 2 have 8 "students".. but only 5 turned out... so da menu was duck... lamb... n pumpkin soup... (da real name of da menu i dunno la.... coz too long n veli "french")... da class was fun.. coz there's Chef Federic.. .he's so sweet n lovely..... n FUNNY!!! then da class finish.... went 2 pastry... go "fight for our croissant".... coz Chef Karam say gonna send some of it 2 da kitchen... but nothing appeared oso... so we go fight for it.... (says Chef Federic)... hahahahhaa... so we did had out croissant... n it's so nice... inside got chocolate fillings somemore..... chocolatie~~ then we go swimming AGAIN! then bath.... then go makan... then go watch football (saw 1 guy almost hit his BALLS but broke his teeth.... lol!)..(lazy tell story liao)..... then now bak here... blogging................. lol....

-end of story <3-

p.s : 2mr still got.... (2 b exact... 2day).... another MISEN-PLACE!!!


Thursday, November 13, 2008 11/13/2008 12:30:00 AM
好闷!


这几天都好闷呢...好像都没有什么好期待的,没什么好想拥有的,没有什么东西好想追求的。在家上网也没什么目的,就闲着闲着。天啊!来给我一点点事情做吧!一直这样下去我只会发霉呀!!argh!!! 难道没男朋友会那么孤独啊?我一直以来还不是这样过生活的吗?为什么拍过拖就会觉得没了男朋友后就很孤独呢?真是不对劲呢!哎呀!算了!不想再去想!


Wednesday, November 12, 2008 11/12/2008 08:55:00 AM
好了!该停了吧!!


每次上网,就一定会去那个网站!该停了吧!干吗一直要知道他都在做什么呢?知道又怎么样?都不能改变了啊!深深里面的我还怀疑着你呢... 不知道你这么做咧.. 会有什么阴谋... 那又和我有什么关系呢?我有管不着!知道了就放下!该放下了!!!!


Tuesday, November 11, 2008 11/11/2008 02:21:00 PM
周杰伦的“退后”


周杰伦的一首歌,“退后”,可以说代表我现在的心情吧。最近都在听一些旧歌,然后就听到了这首歌,歌词里的形容,就在形容着我现在这几天的心情。以前听这首歌时都没觉得怎么样,现在又听回,真是不可思议呀!实在太像似了!

周杰伦 - 退后
天空灰的像哭过

离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余

我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去



Monday, November 10, 2008 11/10/2008 01:23:00 AM
脑海里,装了好多事情呀~


最近,不知为什么,脑海里装了好多东西。统统都不是好的呢... 也最近就真的知道他有了女朋友,是开心因为不再是他的包袱,还是伤心因为还有点放不下他,但为什么当初就做了这个决定呢?还不是自作自受... 但想来想去,做了的决定也改变不到了,一切发生的事故,都有自己的原因吧!做了这最难的决定也让我看清了一下事情,虽然我们连见面和通电话都没有,但也有些值得开心的一些事吧... 但算来算去,还是不开心的是比开心的事多!真可笑也好矛盾!但一切都无法在改变啦!最重要还不是专心课程吧!还有这么多的事必须证明给人看呢!

最近呢,也发觉我的前越来越少了,得关心一下我的经济问题吧!有些呢,是因为帮人家换钱,过后应该分起来换的,没想都他们都没主动做这样的动作,那我也不想和他们讨债吧!因为我不喜欢和人要钱。又来一个自作自受咯!做人真难呀!唉!现在我连一块钱都不想带去学校了,只带身份证和学生卡,其他不带了!需要复印东西的话,就对不起了,我没钱了!

有时真的希望朋友会体谅一下下,应该知道钱每次都是我付,食物就给他们吃到爽爽,我一星期的食粮,可以在一两天内就吃完了。自己有去超级市场,就可以买啊!要我叫你买的话,我自己也不好受... 多希望可以在家自闭一两个星期,不想到外界有受影响,因为我知道自己随时可以爆炸了!哭又哭不出,骂又骂不出话来,迟早给人取笑,给人当小丑,我也不是那么好欺负的,但事实也蛮好欺负!被看小,没被珍惜.. 这种生活好难过呀!又不能给人看自己的弱点,不想给人看到我的脆弱,得扮坚强,扮勇敢... 那有没有人知道我其实也需要被人赞扬,被关心,被看高,被人当榜样?不多人知道吧!我看连最亲的朋友也不知道.... 那又有什么好抱怨?反正也没有抱怨的对方......

让我活在自己的世界吧.......


Saturday, November 8, 2008 11/08/2008 08:37:00 PM
i think i can live with it...


there's no point letting me think bout tat stupid issue for such a long period... n i think i can live with it... as long as i keep everything occupied.... yea.... i shall let it go~ woosh!!


11/08/2008 10:46:00 AM
i've made a very terrible mistake....


omg....i now i can't do anything anymore... i've made a very terrible mistake.... i shouldn't have done tat.... now he knows i still like 2 care or 2 say i like 2 kpc.... omg omg.... i've done something which couldn't been done.... omg!!!!! i'll stay away from internet as much as possible!!!


Friday, November 7, 2008 11/07/2008 11:43:00 PM
why??


it has already proven n witnessed by me tat i'm actually free of any burdens from u.... but y am i still trying 2 keep da updates going on?? do i still really care bout it?? or i'm juz being a kpc?? or juz deep down inside there's still a space for u??? i try not 2 think bout it... but still... when i open it... i juz feel like checking out on u... juz to double-check or some sort... i juz couldn't help it... i tot i am freed... but mayb not i guess... i was kinda happy.. but da same time i feel another emptiness inside me... which actually makes me wonder.... omg... i really dunno wad am i thinking..........


11/07/2008 04:29:00 PM
i can also b mean!


lol... tis morning go on9 on maple... then i dunno y i feel so empty... like i'm no more da shining star ady... i find ppl dun care 2 bother wad i say or even juz ignored me.... well... fine... i dun care oso la.... i mayb care when i juz happened... but since it had happen for quite some time... so i'm gotta say tat i'm actually quite used 2 it anyway... so i decided 2 leave guild.... i dun think there's space for me anyway... as i m being buay song-ed by her n i too buay song her... so juz leave la... heck care it's my fren's guild.. i'm gonna b inactive anyway...

after leaving da guild... she come find me... lol... ask me y leave somemore.... n i can still tok nicely 2 her... haha.... very funny... then she start 2 say tat i've been so-called backstabbing her... well yea... i'm not ashame 2 actually admit it... coz it's a fact tat i did nothing wrong n u come in da way n say i an such a kp... fine... next time if i really on9 n i dun mine saying ur bad things INFRONT of u!!! da most wad u can do? i'm not even training... i'm not even cashy... i'm not even popular.... wanna ks me?? i'm sick of training.... wan mega me?? gud then.. go do charity 2 asiasoft.... try n think la b!tch!! now hu's da gorwn up 1?? call me 2 grow up?? u grow up 1st dude!! oh sorry... u're not a dude... u're a bitch~

anyway... do wadever u wan then... like i care???


11/07/2008 10:44:00 AM
it's time 4 me 2 let go.....


when i on my msn tis morning... i saw something which i actually always wanted.. i've always been worried tat my decision is right or wrong.... n now i know it.... i did da right decision... when i actually decide 2 do tat... i was still reluctant in letting go... coz it's so hard 4 me 2 find 1... mayb my chancw haven't come yet bah... juz not yet.... i was so worried tat he actually will get hurt a lot... mayb 1st few days or weeks will b like tat... but doesn't mean tat i wont too.... n i always wish tat he could juz say "i dun love u anymore" "no more feelings ady"... those kind of things... coz it could actually make me feel much much more better... n now.. i witnessed it... coz he could actually find another person hu he can love... although i dunno hu is it.... it's not even my problem anymore.... it's time 4 me 2 let go n find a better life....!


Thursday, November 6, 2008 11/06/2008 09:27:00 PM
weird bout me....


i've been having bad temper these few days... n i dunno how... sometimes not everything i do is right... n not everything i do is wrong... i was toking with my mum in da car... then she say my blisters... n again ask me y i take tis course... she is actually kinda against me from taking tis course coz it involves killing.... well for da time being i'm not killing any life animals... coz college provides frozen food.... but still... dun gimme tat look ma... i really like tis course n i ady chose it... wad can i do wor?? wan me go bcome nurse?? a teacher??? study form6 instead?? no i will not.... i know it's hard bout da fees... n i know tat i'm ady trying my best 2 get gud results... so tat a scholarship is confirmed.... i know wad 2 do.... dun keep pushing n pressing me la~!!! i need rest oso!!! argh!!! everytime oso care bout da money... i chose training oso worry tis worry tat... then say rugi coz allowance so little... but i dun c da allowance they give ma... is da benefits they give... da experience.... when i say i can manage means i can... dun doubt me ady la..... it's not respecting me oso.....

omg......... i'm complaining alot.... argh!!! too stress la!! got assessments... got assignments... aihz.... i can guarantee tat these few weeks wont b a gud week for me...


Wednesday, November 5, 2008 11/05/2008 01:12:00 PM
the things we always remember r always da bad things....


it's a fact tat every1 actually remembers anything which give a bad impression 2 every1... coz it give a big impression of it... but never had ppl actually think bout da gud things tat had happen 2 them bah.... unlike me... i always thing bout da gud things... (mostly)... n ppl say it's better 2 actually think bout da gud things rather than da bad one... coz da gud ones give better memory... n da bad ones will juz give more heartaches n anger... but from my opinion... getting 2 remember da gud things wont juz change a bit... coz u will feel regretted... feel sad in d other hand... n wonder y gud thing happens but still da ending is such... it's juz so unfair coz even though u think bout da gud or bad... da ending for me is always heartaches n anger.......

it's juz so unfair....


Monday, November 3, 2008 11/03/2008 04:05:00 PM
victim of hot oil n cuts!!


2day my calss had a kitchen class... after getting all ingredients... i decided 2 de-bone da lamb shoulder... it was quite ok for da first 2 pieces... then came in another 2 more.. so i ahd 2 continue de-boning it... but tis 3rd n 4th piece... it's frozen!!! omg!! i took lots of effort in it... n try not 2 cut myself... in d end... i still got a cut from my lovely knife... haihz... washed my finger a few times 2 stop da bleeding... then continue 2 de-bone... then wash again... wad a day~!! when i wanted 2 get cut or burn it will never happen... but when i'm not even qualified 2 get some care from some1... i tend 2 hurt myself more...

after finishing my lamb... i went 2 help with d appetizer... which is vegetarian pakora... basically is potatoes, ladies fingers n cauliflower... coat it with flour.. then dip it inside a batter then go fry it... i got my 20 blisters from there!!! u know la.. when u drop da vege into hot oil.. it sometimes will "jump" up some oil... then kena my hand... then got 20 blisters!! OMFG!!

anyway... all ends well... LOL!


11/03/2008 02:19:00 AM
headaches again...


been having this sickening headaches for a few days tru... n i dun even know wad's da cause of it... at 1st i tot is bcoz of me not bathing... but after i bath.. still da headache is there... then i tot it's coz i din eat... but i eat liao oso still headache... then i tot not enuf sleep lo... 2day sleep like pig... still got headache... aihz... wonder wad's da problem man~... n imagine now i'm still awake n not sleeping yet... oh my gosh... can't sleep dudes~!!! argh!!


Saturday, November 1, 2008 11/01/2008 08:06:00 PM
interview successfull (gua)~!!!


2day... woke up at 7.30... tidy up my hair... change 2 casual... then iron hair... we went 2 kl sentra by ktm.. then go bukit bintang by monorail... can't bliv we're gonna go tis tru everyday n day... OMG~!!! anyway... we wore casual o~!!! not formal o~!!! no la... we wore casual coz dun wanna walk around from pj 2 kl in formal bah!! hot n weird lei~!! so when we reached bukit bintang station... go pavilion... go change 2 formal... then put on make ups somemore~!!! lol~ then went 2 The Ritz-Carlton Hotel...

interviewed by Mr Royston... he's a nice man... at least i know he's not da lansi type... coz mostly HR ppl hor... veli lansi de~ at least he's not... YAY~! after interviewing both of us... he said.. "i don't have any problem in both of u all" "i will send the letter 2 taylors college n keep the updates will Mr. Hadi" "i will send the working schedule mayb around in december because if i send now, it will be pointless".... well?? is it a yes lei??? LOL~!!

anyway... after that... treated myself with Starbucks o~!! JAVA CHIP ROX!!! then went 2 Shihlin for lunch... lol~ pokkai liao lu~ i'm gonna go pokkai liao lo pokkai~!!! HAHA~!!



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