Sunday, February 28, 2010 2/28/2010 10:42:00 AM

long time din post....

♥so...
things has been a while...
everything seems to be so busy....
working up on projects...
assignments.... and exams...
and the stress of final exams too...

nothing much as chinese new year is going to end...
like 2day's da laz day actually....
got quite ok ok numbers of angpows too...
enuf 2 buy a fon...
but dunno which 2 buy yet...

then being bz 2 keep myself alone these few days...
mayb not alone...
but trying 2 be accompanied by ppl hu i dun hate...
so after a meeting among my project mates...
suppose 2 go bak n do a survey with some of them...
then i decided not 2 go...
coz i know i wont feel comfortable...
secondly.... i period 2day...
lol.... wad a coincidence....

anyway i was happy with my decision...
as i only slacked for da past 2 days ago...
did nothing with da project n stuffs...
furthermore i din do much on my research too...

so tat's all i guess...
monday's gonna b practical assessment...
then tuesday i'm gonna go out 2 midvalley 2 have some fun...

planning 2 change blogskin though...
but no time...
mayb after my finals...

tat's all i guess...
bak 2 my research...

Wednesday, February 17, 2010 2/17/2010 09:33:00 PM

emotional breakdown..?

♥ok i admit my mood aint so good since b4 cny...
it's juz all jumble up...
any small little things will juz make me pissed off..
small little things will make me jealous...
then small little things will make go crazy...

i have tis super bad attitude...
i kinda look things negatively...
and also look thing positively...
but only things in relationships i'm pessimistic...
coz i understand da nature of impermanence...
n tat's da one n only thing tat makes me go insane...

as i said...
i heard alot of stories..
i'm a listener...
i love giving advice in relationship...
n most of it... i think it kinda worked out...
n then they will tell me how happy they are...
ain't i suppose 2 b happy too???
in fact i felt envious more than happy...
coz i couldn't experience it myself..
n i can only experience it based on other ppl...
it's kinda a heartache....

haihz...... tat's all now...

Tuesday, February 16, 2010 2/16/2010 11:06:00 PM

banging head almost every second...

♥my momma is being super irritating these few days...
then i realised how i hated staying at home...
how i wish i'm at my apartment now....
even though there's internet here...
i still think tat i'll b alot calmer at my apartment...
coz i can wake up anytime i wan...
then all i can hear will b silence...
no1 bugging at my ear...
especially when i 1st woke up...
anyway...
hoping 2 go bak apartment veli soon...
can have peaceful life...

now tat my bro's bak..
nephew's bak...
my mum will b occupied on him more liao...
thank god....
hope 2 get more peace...

sign off~

Monday, February 15, 2010 2/15/2010 07:32:00 PM

i want a super hot vampire boyfriend...

♥i hear alot of love stories...
read alot of love stories...
and also see alot of love stories...
then i always wonder when will it b my turn??
i find it kinda hard for me 2 get one aye?
no looks... no body... no personality...
so choosie... demanding (i think)...
haha...
hear so many ppl say i miss him/her...
love him/her so much...
all da lovey dovey...
makes me so much of envious...
until a small part of me kinda wish them break up... (choi choi choi)
but then really 祝福 them...
for me??
slowly wait for my 桃花 to come lu....

now only wish i can get a super hot vampire bf~
hahahaaha!
ok la...
no need b super hot...
as long as he's a vampire...
tat's ady more than enuf... haha!

anyway...
heart abit 酸酸 coz of da loneliness...
hope will b cured soon..
but then mayb after i grad only got chance?
tat's juz so long...
lol~
then i'll juz live in my own fantasy world bah....~

2/15/2010 09:51:00 AM

pissed..

♥ytd was CNY...
and also valentine's day...
suppose 2 go temple...
but din go coz my 2nd bro came here and eat mee suah late...
so mum say dun wan go ady...
and actually i dun feel like going out...
she's like so eager 2 go out...
then ok la...
decided 2 go The Curve for dinner...
but when reach there...
all close...
then some full...
then some only have set menus...

i end up eating Shihlin's chicken instead...
there's always a reason why i dun wanna eat da food which only me can eat...
coz my mum will feel "geram" coz she dun get 2 eat...
and only get 2 see me eat...
then ok la..
u wan it tat way...
ma let u see lo...

then wadever she did laz nite..
she juz pissed me off...
wadever small little things la...
juz pissed me off...
cannot walk so long...
still wanna walk...
then walk like senget here and senget there...
keep leaning on me...
making me 2 walk sideway...
I DUN LIKE IT!!!

keep bothering me wanna eat wad...
where she can't even eat...
LIAR!
say dun wanna eat...
but actually is wanna eat...
very annoying la!

haihz....
dun wanna say anything ady...
later see wad she can do again....

Saturday, February 13, 2010 2/13/2010 07:23:00 PM

valentine's day...

♥so...
2mr's valentines day aye??
yeah...
heartache...
anyway...
i've heard so many love stories being told 2 me...
some lovely ones...
some sweet ones..
n some broken ones...

n sometimes i do wonder around...
y none ever happened 2 me??
muz i mold myself into some1 else to get wad i want??
i dun think tat's wad i'll do too...
i'm a stubborn and gutless gal..
and i do admit it...
but...
haihz...
i'm even speechless rite now...

valentine's day is da same day as CNY...
both days that i wished it will be gone very fast...
CNY's a day where joy comes..
but for me...
family broken until i dunno how's it's like...
like a piece of glass shattered around...
and i juz have to pick it up with my bare hands...
but it's so hard 2 think that coz i will hurt my hands...
it's like i wouldn't even wanna mend tat piece of glass...
coz it will hurt me back...

2mr going temple...
i hope it's not so noisy...
i juz wanna stare into the serene-looking Buddha...
and make my mind calm for such a long time...
n i hope he wont appear there...
i have tis feeling tat i might see him 2mr...
haihz...

tat's all for now...
blog again if i feel like...

2/13/2010 05:16:00 PM

bad bad CNY...

♥so...
2mr it's da new beginning of the year of Tiger...
BAD BAD year...
i read so many books...
all say it's a bad year for Horse ppl...
lately kinda stressed up...
laz monday was da day i was suppose 2 send in 1 report...
n made it on time..
without any help from my partner though...
told my lecturer about it..
he's suppose 2 talk 2 us..
but then... i know i have no guts...
i agree...
so i juz 4get it...
let him do da rest...

then rush up my entrepreneur assessment...
suppose 2 hand in on wednesday...
but lecturer say can hand in by friday...
since i've done all of it...
finished by wednesday actually...
so i sent it on thursday instead...
then i felt so free...
thursday afternoon went out with bro to subscribe da digi broadband thing...
needed my student id...

after that he sent me bak my apartment...
got so bored...
i even thought of going out 2 watch a series of movies..
but then i got so lazy..
n it was so HOT...
so end up reading my new book...
read till i fell asleep...

woke up around 7...
cooked some sausages and eggs...
then continue reading...
until i force myself 2 sleep since da next day is an early class..
but end up i couldn't sleep..
keep stirring on the bed...
N i woke up late...
not late if da campus is near my apartment..
but late if da campus is at the lakeside...
lol... rush 2 da bus...
but then da bus driver waited till 8.05am only move..
=.=... and my class starts at 8..
but anyway... da lecturer was late..
so nvm...

after class... mum picked me up...
went 1u...
bought a necklace for my purple dress..
mum bought da most stuffs though...
was having headache da whole time..
but din tell mum...
coz will spoil her mood...
reach home.. got a bath..
headache was slightly better...
at nite around 9...
it came bak again...
so i slept early instead....

2day lei...
okok day la...
bothered by my dad issues only la...
serves him right that no1 wanted 2 meet him...
including my 2nd bro hu FFK him oso...
LOL!

anyway tat's all...
mood not so gud now...

Tuesday, February 9, 2010 2/09/2010 10:24:00 AM

tones...

♥i have lots in mind for da past few days...
but when it comes 2 posting...
i dun think there's much again...
things been kinda rough these few days...
struggling with assignments, assessments, and family stuffs.
but i hope things will turn out fine...
since CNY break is coming..
i have time to ease myself up...
but then...
CNY is another thing...
another thing 2 worry about...
coz of my dad...
a dad hu cheated on my mum and humiliates his children infront of ppl..
anyway...
tat's all 2 post...
i post bout my dad coz i wan ppl 2 realise tat the ppl nowadays...
are not da ones we hope for..
in fact.. it's turning d other way round...

tat's all...
gonna go bak do my assignment...

Sunday, February 7, 2010 2/07/2010 04:23:00 PM

bday wishlist~

♥wanna make a bday wishlist here...
although i know sure wont get any of it..
unless i buy myself.. LOL!

1) MP3
2) C510 SE Phone
3) Camera
4) Headphone
5) More vampire novels
6) Pencil box
7) Windows7
8) New lappy
9) A gud Year 2010
10) Happy forever
11) Super HOT boyfriend [as if i will... =p]
12) More clothes, bags, shoes.

i think at least will get my fon b4 my bday bah...
coz i'm getting it myself.. haihz...

*for my readers... MY BDAY IS ON 27th MARCH yea~!! ^_^
*awaiting more presents...

Tuesday, February 2, 2010 2/02/2010 12:12:00 PM

CNY

♥i tot cny shud b a happy festival...
but turn out 2 be a suckie one...
ok not all suckie...
but will going to be if things are not well planned...
my parents are having a divorce...
then thing wont settle so easily n tat soon b4 CNY...
so me n my family have 2 bare with my dad...
a dad hu cheats on my mother and is still doing so in public...
we're juz lucky tat we left him and came 2 kl n stay...
now he received da lawyer's letter...
saying tat my mum is divorcing him...
now he's trying 2 patch things up...
AFTER 4 LONG YEARS n now only he's trying to patch up??
i dun think so...
i've been humiliated by him in public twice...
i've been slap by him in public once...
i've been scolded by him for no reasons sometimes for multiple times...
n all say tat he loves me???
BULLSHIT!

yes i know i did not help my mum in da divorce case...
n i know my mum is not happy bout it...
so wad 2 do...
i've not gud n being matured n pro-active...
n now u can say wadever u can...
all i will do is silently support u mentally...
i dun have the guts to support u physically..
if u know wad i mean...

so now my dad is asking whether we're free or not on CNY...
gratz 2 my elder bro he's going 2 Ipoh with my sis-in-law n nephew..
so he'd escape tis big problem...
n now it's only me, my 2nd bro, and my mum 2 face it...
of coz i wont let my mum see him...
unless she really does...
so it's only up 2 me to do da ignorant attitude..
i've already told him we're not going s'pore...
n we have plans to make...
asking me bout other things??
i'm not going 2 answer...
tat's it...
wanna know??
find out urself n ask the ppl involve urself...

urgh! spoiled my day...
n i'm suppose 2 do my sugar report 2day...
SO tat's all for now...
will post more bout my mood when i'm actually free...