Thursday, December 31, 2009 12/31/2009 03:45:00 AM

emo lately...

♥so...
things juz went wrong these few days...
i dun have much 2 say...
ytd morning i cried...
tis morning i holded my tears...
wonder wad's gonna happen 2mr...
so 2 make things better...
i decided not 2 follow bunch of lolita frens 2 jalan...
decided 2 go watch Avatar 3D alone...
n enjoy my new year's eve... ^^
so at least during da movie i can cry out loud...
coz da laz time i watched...
i holded tears oso...
i'm abit "kiasu" in a sense...
so 2mr heading 2 curve...
to b exact shud b today...
gonna head 2 curve around 3pm...
then go cineleisure n watch movie at 6...
at da mean time...
go popular by my book....
more vampire stories 2 read^^....
mayb now reading makes me more happier...
living in da world beyond imagination...
feels like reality more than virtual...

so i'm signing off now...
hope it's gonna be a gud end of the year 2009...

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 12/29/2009 01:25:00 PM

mood turn black again... =.=

♥i was juz posting a gud mood post..
n now it's turned into a bad mood post...
argh!
got a fon call from my god mum from sg...
she heard my mum's CEA blood test went up...
ask me where is she...
i say i dunno coz i juz wake up...
then come lecture me...
say i dun care for her la...
dun sleep late late then wake up late late la...
wad am i suppose 2 do??
follow her wherever she goes???
sleep whenever she does??
wake up whenever she does??

i have my life too...
every1 ask me do i go out n have some fun??
i say no.. coz my mum's around...
ppl might wonder y i dun go out when mum's around...
1 thing she might need 2 send me out...
another thing she might need 2 fetch me when it's late at nite...
another thing i can't enjoy my time coz i'll b thinking bout her convinience...
i wan ppl to understand...
i dun wan ppl to assume things nonsensely...
I WAN A LIFE!!!

12/29/2009 01:02:00 PM

Mood's BACK!!!

♥so my frens also decided to go for countdown...
n for now da plans' still on...
*finger cross* hope they dun change plan...

went out 2 days ago...
my fren had a open house in Sunway Court...
went 2 apartment 2 take some things...
then str8 go pyramid to buy wine n chocs as gift...
after tat they decided 2 watch avatar at Tropicana City Mall...
but in d end cancelled...
i was so frustrated tat time...
fetched mum n ate dinner after tat...
then at nite they ask whether can go watch movie on saturday nite...
then i say cannot coz mum's gonna use da car...
in d end change 2 ytd...
hehe... happy happy~!!

ytd i was suppose 2 go my apartment stay 1 nite...
coz mum dun let me use car...
so stay 1 nite as it's gonna b late after the movie...
in d end mum let me use car...
wakakkakakakak!
AVATAR ROCKS!!!!!!
while waiting 4 my fren...
went MPH n read like 3 chapters of a vampire book...
hahaha....
it's a nice book...
but too bad dun have enuf cash 2 buy...
will buy next time...
anyway...
AVATAR seriously rocks...

Saturday, December 26, 2009 12/26/2009 11:47:00 PM

2nd thoughts...

♥31st December...
suppose 2 meet up some maple frens...
n also countdown at da same time...
2day... most of them are talking bout their clothes they are going 2 wear...
n i got sick... =.=
i mean literally....
they're gonna wear lolitas...........
1 semi-gothic lolita...
1 princess lolita...
da rest... i have yet 2 discover...
n i'm gonna b surrounded by them....
owwhhhhh it's juz a lil' bit hard 2 imagine..
until i was thinking of not going......
still thinking.....

12/26/2009 09:37:00 AM

nothing special...

♥nothing special happened during my christmas...
well there is..
my dad came.. =.=
which it kinda sucks...
i sent my mum out for her retreat o n 24th...
gud for her coz she wont see my dad...
then str8 came home...
i was surprised coz my dad din come...
AND tat's GUD!!!

da next day...
went out 11 something juz 2 find him...
at my aunt's place...
i know my bro hates talking...
n coz i'm near my aunt n uncle...
they keep asking me questions on my studies n stuffs...
so in d end i did most of the talkings...

then bro send us go eat at Aman Suria...
once drive in...
i str8 thought.. "ehhhh?? AMAN SURIA?!?!?!"
then i msg Rainna Aiai...
then she say y din tell her earlier... lol~
so went there n eat da so-called famous seremban char siew...
not bad... very nice...
but da hakka noodle make me super FULL!!!
then after eating...
brought dad bak home...
haihz... it's da most boring time EVER!!
then went out for dinner and also fetch my nephew...
ate dinner at Ying Ker Lou in Curve...
nice food oso... quite expensive too.. =.=
then walked around Curve...
took some pictures with my nephew...
so super happy la him....
then went home...
m bro go send dad bak uncle's house...
n finally it's OVER!!! OMG!

when reach home... tot can train at maple awhile...
manatau my nephew wanna play...
played with him for 1 hour.. OMG!
longest ever....
played drum then he dance...
FOR 1 HOUR!!!
DA SAME MOVES OSO!!!
then continue my mapling...
joined plurk too...
to me it's nothing special...
lol~

chit chat with aiai in maple...
then off around 1...
went in room read book...
until fell asleep... lol!
so tat's all...

2day's gonna b another boring day...

Thursday, December 24, 2009 12/24/2009 02:11:00 PM

Tuesday, December 22, 2009 12/22/2009 12:12:00 AM

BE MYSELF LA!!!

♥i still dun get it....
WAD'S WRONG IN BEING MYSELF!!!!!!
OMG!!!
got into a conversation with my mum...
she say she got a verbal slap from my aunt...
hu juz say things without thinking...
and 2 u my aunt! WAD"S WRONG IN BEING MYSELF????
AND IT"S IN MY GENES!!!
i admit laz time i no manners...
i dun call ppl when i go ppl's house...
then tat was last time...
y muz keep thinking tat i am still like tat??
OMG! u dun live with me.. then dun say things like tat bout me!

i juz dun get ppl...
can't they think of something pleasant or gud memories?
i know da bad ones are hard 2 forget...
but isn't da gud ones only da ones that is worth cherishing?
haihz... PPL!!! THINK!!!!
I LIKE BEING MYSELF!!!
I LIKE BEING LAZY!!!
I LIKE SAYING BAD WORDS WHEN I REALLY MEAN IT!!! (not everytime ah)
I LIKE DOING WAD I LIKE!!!
I LIKE HOW I DRESS MYSELF!!!
I LIKE TALKING DA WAY I LIKE IT!!!
I LIKE SAYING THINGS THAT ARE MEANT TO BE!!!
I LIKE EVERYTHING I DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so dun try to make me be some1 HU I DUN EVEN KNOW!!!

Monday, December 21, 2009 12/21/2009 10:23:00 AM

after z open day & campus day...

♥so tired after the open day...
juz wake up 7am...
get ready...
sit bus...
reach there...
clear things up...
START WORK!
omg....
everyday it's juz like tat...
n all of them only know how 2 bully the asam laksa & rojak buah!
which is me hu's in-charge of it!
everyday... only these 2 food will constantly out...
da rest of the signature dishes...
juz WON"T go out!!!
sure la their chef is not around...
they can take charge...
mine is da chef around...
NO MATTER HOW OSO MUZ OUT!!!

haihz... nvm... 2day gonna get my pay ady...
wakakakakaka! RM500 here i come!!!
gonna have hair cut...
then buy hair dye n dye myself...
still wondering shud i go pierce my ear...
till now i haven't done it yet...
hmmm......

Friday, December 18, 2009 12/18/2009 05:42:00 PM

just broken...

♥

i know it sounds ridiculous...
but i think i really fell for 1 guy in a game...
i know game is a very virtual thing...
but things juz happens...
n i feel tat i do care wad he does to me...
from talking 2 me...
caring for me...
giving me gifts...
then cool to me...
not talking 2 me...
and d end...
it juz stopped.....
everything is not real to certain ppl...
i know... but it's sort of real 2 me...
coz i could see some similarities between us...
but it's ok....
time will juz mend everything up again...
n things will b diff...

so 2day was campus day...
so much difference than laz week...
laz week was packed like hell...
but 2day is like so few ppl....
very very few ppl....
until i got bored most of the time....
then... when my frens were chatting with the lecturers...
yeah i juz be myself n said "diu"...
so wad?? i cannot be wad i am??
wad i always do??
i muz mould myself to b some1 else?
so tat ppl will like me??
i dun think so...
if i b myself n ppl will see hu i am...
if i act out something tat ppl likes...
then they see da fake side of me..
once i show my true self...
then everything will b worse than ever....
so i can't b hu i am??
like me as u see...
not like me as u wan me to be...

anyway...
will post some pics into here 2 make tis blog a lil' bit more lively...
hahaha....
booyah~

Wednesday, December 16, 2009 12/16/2009 11:10:00 PM

charm...

♥i see ppl hu juz have the charm....
the charm to attract ppl...
me lei?? i dun have...
1 thing i know is that i have the potential to get cheated by ppl....
i juz dunno y...
things juz gone within my grasp...
juz *poof*...
wad i wanted juz gone like tat...

sometimes i juz wish i have tat charm....
but if i had it...
i might think tat it's a misfortune to me oso...
depends so much on perspective....
but for me now....
i wan tat...
i wan tat CHARM.....a

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 12/15/2009 11:47:00 PM

still sick....

♥most of the ppl hu went for open day to work....
IS SICK!!!!!!!!!!!
omg.... i still need 2 make sure i'm ok by 2mr....
thursday gonna start work again...
haihz.....

so i've changed the blogskin again....
i think i'm quite happy with it now...
it actually suits my mood and character too...
been searching for a suitable blogskin since tis afternoon...
and finally got tis...
kinda satisfied bah...

anyway...
found 1 person hu din get sick...
lol... but whole body aching....
i hope all of them get well soon...
including me....
juz now got a feeling tat fever is coming soon...
ate panadol...
but da ache is still there....
then couldnt stand it anymore...
i went 2 the freezer and ate a piece of ice...
surprisingly it worked!!
no more headache.... hahahahaha.....
but got blocked nose la...
but still i rather had blocked nose than headache...

it's been like 3 days i think....
WHERE IS RAINNA AIAI!!!!!!???????
I MISS YOU!!!!!!
wonder wad's wrong....
hope nothing happen bah....
it's not like her........
plz come bak on9!!!!


*end post*

Monday, December 14, 2009 12/14/2009 10:16:00 PM

sick....

♥i think i'm gonna go sick soon...
my eyes were sort of swollen n keep coming out tears...
then my nose is either blocked or dripping water...
and my throat is now soaring.... =.='''
all happen after tat open day....

laz tuesday i was asked to go kitchen for a food demo....
turn out to be a function....
so went kitchen from 8am till 6.30pm...
wednesday... i had my law n financial maths exam....
after exam...
str8 go home change then go kitchen....
washed 50kg of ikan kembung...
and steamed 50kg of ikan kembung...
then peeled 50kg of ikan kembung flesh....
from 5pm till 10pm... =.='''
thursday... was in kitchen from 8am till 9pm...
actually was in kitchen from 8am till 4pm...
then 4pm start bcome kuli go xfer things from college to lakeside campus....
ALL the food prepared including utensils...
everything send to lakeside campus...
betul betul kuli....

then friday the big day...
Taylors open day...
estimated 2000 pax...
turn out to be more than 2000 pax...
non-stop turnover food...
until i beh tahan...
can't even eat my lunch...
same goes to saturday and sunday....
i'm now even speechless about tis open day....

tis thursday is another campus day...
expectation is still da same....
HAIHZZZZ........
n now i got a feeling tat i'm getting sick AGAIN...
i better get better soon....
if not my mum's gonna kill me....
sick at the wrong place and at the wrong time...
haihz...

Monday, December 7, 2009 12/07/2009 12:36:00 PM

something is so wrong with my blogskin!!

♥i tot i've solved my blogskin problem ady....
2day i open my lappy 2 open my blog....
IT"S STILL DA SAME!!!! OMG!!!
if i were to change blogskin again....
think i'll do it after my exams....
got too much 2 study...

and i'm not in damansara....
i'm all da time in my apartment....
y??? coz family kena h1n1....
i'm forbidden 2 go home....
lol......

din tell any1 though....
coz i dun wan ppl 2 bother me...
and too bad ppl saw me...
so.....
home my plans dun change at all....

*fingers crossed*

Thursday, December 3, 2009 12/03/2009 03:02:00 PM

imperfect...

♥life is so imperfect...
but sometimes i wish it will b perfect for me juz once...
once is enuf...
and yet... never bah...
how i wish my life is juz like a movie...
or a drama...
very fantasy and so filled with coincidence...
and yet... of coz it never happen...
i kinda feel tat my blog is juz all about emo stuffs...
lol... of coz it is...
my life is missing...
it's missing a fraction part of something...
n i hope it is filled very soon....
i hope...

Tuesday, December 1, 2009 12/01/2009 12:59:00 PM

i wanna be loved... not being annoyed....

♥i've seen many ppl got lots of love...
n yet they dun seem to appreciate it...
but i've also seen ppl who are being loved...
n they are juz so happy 2gether...
when i see so... heartache again...
y can't i experience it???
i can even knoe da answer without asking any1 though...
it's juz coz of my character only...
i hate ppl who talks too much crap...
juz a little is enuf... but not too much...
it's juz too hard 2 get some1 perfect...

then there's ppl hu has da looks...
fallen in love many times...
but none of it juz goes on perfectly???
it's juz so ironic...
n i dun understand tat his/her some1 is sort of an annoying person..
or some1 hu's not even worth wasting time on...
they kept thinking bout him/her...
well... mayb it is true tat "love is blind"...

sometimes i rather b a nobody than a somebody...
but some part in my heart...
i feel like being a somebody rather than a nobody...
coz being a nobody sucks...
it really do sucks...
but i've lived in such life for quite some time...
n i sort of got used to it...


*end of post... back to my normal life*