Saturday, January 30, 2010 1/30/2010 11:24:00 PM

more facts about me...

♥so there's nothing much happening...
piles of projects and assignments due...
alot of things 2 do...
and i'm going to do tat on tuesday...
i have my whole day to do...
then slowly on wednesday, and thursday...
try to finish up as much as i can...

so...
my mum's having a divorce...
i find my family kinda weird...
i've seen families tat do not want their children to get involve in divorcing...
but for my mum...
she always complaint tat we(her children)..
do not give a damn bout it...
she thinks she suffered alone...
but mayb she din know tat we also suffered when we were young...
n we already "deleted" tis dad for years already...
tat is y most of the things tat happens 2 him doesn't concern me...
so she say we kept quiet n not helping her in da case...
wad can u do bout it??
we prefer to dun bother bout it...
since u're kinda capable in doing so many things...
then let u settle bah...
then at d end of the story...
credits u take...
shit we receive...
it's ok la... up 2 u on wad u wanna say...
not tat we dun wanna help...
u tell me wad can i help???
i wanna go tru my 20 years of normal pampered childhood life oso cannot...
coz i have 2 think so maturely...
n i dun get 2 enjoy my life the fullest...
i already have a broken family...
wan me 2 fite for a broken family somemore??
i think i'm not tat strong...

then i have 2 worry bout my results...
i have 2 score quite high to get a scholarship...
coz of wad??
coz of u...
coz of my decision hu no1 actually supported me...
n yet u wan me 2 support u...
n dun say i dun support u...
my way of supporting is not like wad u want...
anyway...
i have 2 score 16/20 and above to get tat scholarship...
n hopefully i could...

it's been a long time i din blog out such sad post ady...
n now...
mood juz lost again...
family family family...
no1 really understands me i guess....
n i think no1 will...

Saturday, January 23, 2010 1/23/2010 08:41:00 AM

new term~

♥it's been so long i din blog...
guess my feelings are kinda stable...
so it's new term...
my timetable shows tat it's so empty...
but there's hidden meaning in it...
it's to let us study...
let me show u my time table...


very empty rite???
tis week...
the 1st week of term...
everything was even more emptier...
coz monday there's no kitchen class...
so went pyramid 2 watch movie...
da next day...
which was tuesday...
oso went pyramid 2 watch movie...
n i even made my sunglasses... hehe~
will post photos of it when i'm free...
then wednesday... nothing much...
thursday went 2 pyramid after class again...
went there take money for fees...
then surprisingly the optics shop called to ask me collect my sunglasses...
tat was fast...
wore it on friday when my mum come fetch me... hehe!
it's kinda big...
but heck cares~
i still like it...
so tat's all...
gonna start worry bout my finals...
hopping to get full scholarship...
then my mum no need 2 worry so much...
haihz....
need start study liao lo~!!!

Friday, January 8, 2010 1/08/2010 11:33:00 AM

thoughts....

♥i realised lately that i have lots of dreams...
mostly are bad one as i can recall...
some are juz meaningless...
one of my bad dreams is a being ignored as i mentioned in my last blog...
another 1 is i got shot by a gun at my spine...
some i can't remember ady...
then things juz happens lately...
i did mention my facebook tat i'm always potrayed as a bad person...
and i'm sick of being the gud person...
my fren commented... saying mayb i juz dunno how 2 be gud...
i got an intant slap in d face to b honest when he commented tat...
i dunno...
i think i did pretty well when i'm being gud...
y dun ppl see it??
if i really did something bad...
and i am really not being gud at all...
let me know... give me another slap...
mayb i could wake up tis time...

i've really been thinking alot...
my mine is juz the battle between "Appreciation VS Ignorance"
some1... enlightened me plz....

Monday, January 4, 2010 1/04/2010 09:57:00 PM

WAHAHAHAHA!

♥ok i admit i'm a lil' bit crazy these few days...
anyway...
i see lots of blogs...
n most of them actually describes wad were they doing during da day...
n so... they update it almost everyday...
well it's not wrong...
for me... blog is a way to express my unexpress-able feelings...
LOL... if u get wad i'm saying..
haha...
of coz my blog is mostly emo posts...

so i had tis very bad dream during my nap today...
at d end of the dream...
i was being ignored eventhough i fight for my frens...
tis is seriously a bad one..
i even got weak legs after i woke up...
i've always been da one being ignored...
i juz dont know why...
mayb not always... but most of the time Yes...
ppl juz like 2 ignore me i guess...
or mayb they're juz bz...
so i dun really care tat much...
i can easily brain-wash myself saying tat they were juz bz...
juz to keep my mind of it...

i'm still thinking bout tat dream...
it's been very long time i did not have bad dreams..
or even any dreams...
i muz b thinking alot these few days...
anyway...
*sign off... Cheers!

Friday, January 1, 2010 1/01/2010 03:21:00 AM

2010

♥went 2 curve around 4 jz now...
it was already started 2 jam...
so watched Avatar 3D...
not so impressive...
BUT IT STILL ROCKS!!!!
after tat went n meet Rainna Aiai n Firb...
it turned out not so bad at all...
spotlights all went 2 them....
coz they wore lolita...
anyway... it was expected 2 b like tat...
so i dun mind...

for certain reason...
i see them...
they are really into the "camwhore syndrome"...
n they are in a serious stage...
=.='''
weird....
leng lui nvm la...
i'll juz only dress up when i need to i guess...

and for certain reason...
she juz make me feel uneasy...
her character...
ever since i met her...
even in maple...

as for Aiai...
she dun seem 2 be tat emo anyway...
happy family with the bro...
even though she said she hate him so much...
but concerning is so strong in her...
n i can see tat...
mayb it's juz called "love-hate relationship"...
n it's gud 2 have it...

SO BEST ALL ALL FOR EVERYONE!!!!
TO ALL MY READERS....
MY FAMILY...
MY FRIENDS....
MY RAINNA AIAI(NEW YEAR LIAO... DUN EMO)....
MY MAPLE FRIENDS....
It's a new year....
A new life...
Live on... Stay Happy Always... :)