Tuesday, June 22, 2010 6/22/2010 10:52:00 PM

long time din feel so emo...

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long time i din feel jealousy in my heart ady...
i have alot of personal traits that even i couldn't explain...
i dun like ppl to question me...
i dun like ppl to fight me bak...
i like to win...
i dun like losing...
i dun understand why ppl think so differently from me...
i dun understand why other ppl have greater life than mine...
i dun understand why am i born like this...
i dun understand why certain ppl are so ignorant...
i dun understand why they never think bout other...
i dun understand why i understand other ppl more than ppl understand me...
i dun understand why ppl have the same level of egoism as me...
i dun understand why ppl dun listen to me...
i dun understand why i'm not the person to get talked to...
i dun have a fren hu i can talk to...
i dun have a someone to speak out what's inside me...
i choose people to talk to...
i always wanted attention, and attention never came to me...
i dun have the luck with ppl...
i dun have the charisma...
i have nothing...

other ppl complains bout life...
but i got nothing to complain...
coz i'm the complain in life...
i even ever felt guilty of being born...
i always think y am i born such way...
i have a gene of not being to express myself out...
i keep everything inside...
unknowingly i might hurt someone...
and ppl might unknowingly hurt me...
it's like a dagger being plunged into my heart...
i could even stop breathing for it...

i dunno y they have gud n interesting life...
but i had bored to hell life...
and yet they are already complaining bout their life...
telling me y are those things happening to them...
got ppl chase.... not gud?
got bf.... not gud?
got unbroken family... not gud?
got gud looks... not gud?
got frens that cared for u... not gud?
there's a way for u to go... but u chose to escape?

i dun understand y muz make thins so complicated...
i really dun understand alot of things...
even more worse things had happen to me...
i got backstabbed...
i got hurt...
i got ignored...
i got being treated as a practical joke...
i got being bullied...
i have to work so hard to have peaceful life...

ppl hu have lots of weird personal traits...
n still manage to get cared n loved...
n i hu have almost nothing but only an honest heart...
gets nothing...
how sad can my life be?