Friday, August 28, 2009 8/28/2009 11:21:00 PM

i'm 19... n i'm forced 2 behave like an adult....

♥i juz dunno how 2 explain tis.... i have no words 2 describe anything in tis post.... things r always not in da way i want.... it's always d other way round.... i regretted choosing cuisine studio for my training.... i regretting making tis choice coz i get 2 save money n being able 2 stay with family... i really regret it.... staying in mentari court... having da freedom.... going 2 work by myself n stay as late as i want..... is juz so much better.... i juz hate it.... u can't get a piece of mind??? think i could?? i have 2 think on ur behalf so tat get wad u want... n oso try 2 compromise myself so tat i could try n get wad i want.... but it's so hard tat i have 2 do da decision all da time.... can't u juz live with it??? i'm trying 2 live with it........... but u're da main problem here.... i can't do wad i want bcoz of u..... i juz.... i juz wanna pursue my dreams.... u get wad u wanted laz time... now??? now i wanna have wad i want... n it's so hard..... it's juz so hard....... argh!!! fuck!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009 8/24/2009 12:56:00 AM

sometimes i wonder y.....

♥another emo post here....

i come 2 realise tat ppl like 2 tease me....
even without thinking tat their action is so rude n insulting....
i do my work... then i got teased....
i do wad ppl asked... n i get shoot bout it...
i go help ppl... they say i trying 2 steal recipes...
i prepare food.... they asked me which table... i dunno.... then scold me rudely.... then u wanna turn bak n say u were juz joking??
i dunno wad's joke anymore.... i dunno wad's funny anymore... coz i've been living with it for so long.... ppl take me as a joke... or a tool 2 make a joke.... IT AIN'T NICE!!!
if i were 2 have a wishing well.... i guess i will b wishing alot of things everyday...
i wish tat i could wad i have lost
i wish 2 get wad i have not been given....
i wish 2 have my opportunities bak....
i wish i can b a perfect person...
i wish i have a happier life...
i wish ppl stop treating me lika a joke...

there's juz so many things until i couldn't describe....... haihzzz...

Saturday, August 8, 2009 8/08/2009 05:42:00 PM

sometimes i hate Cuisine Studio!!!

♥in cuisine studio got 1 F&B manager only... n he very humsup n his mouth is so damn bad!! anyway.... a few times ady he made me so angry... like a few days ago.. some meat came... so need sign n check... i ma ask da chef check... tat manager was looking from outside... then say "u can check oso wad... y muz ask ppl 2 check 4 u..." then i ma say "need 2 sign la!"... i ady buay song him... then he go add oil on fire... tok 2 da delivery man... say "haiya... gurls nowadays ah... like 2 depend so much on guys... simple things oso dunno how 2 do..." bla bla bla.... so fking asshole la him....

then 2day... got cooking class... so go ppl order orange juice... then i go do lo... then after sending da juice 2 pick up area... he long time only come... then ask "where is my orange juice kua?" ["kua" in cuisine studio means "la", "wad", n etc] so he saw da orange juice liao... he say "y never call me kua"... i was like... u where ENTERTAINING all thos siu lai lai... shout "pick up" oso wont hear de la!!! so i dun care... then he come order another orange juice... so i go make... then finish liao... he say "where my orange juice ah? i wan it 2day not 2mr..." then i put it there liao... HE TAKE N DRINK!! i was like WAD DA FARK!!!! i super buey song! then got another orange juice order... he know i angry... then say it's 4 customer... next time he din say it's for customer then i dun wan juice it... so angry at him!

anyway he's leaving cuisine studio soon... LUCKILY THANK GOD!!! after he leaves... i'll b at peace at d end of my training.... juz got 1 stupid french chef 2 handle! hopes he leave soon... i no need 2 b so filled with anger everyday...

so chao... i go play maple 1st... BBYES!

Monday, August 3, 2009 8/03/2009 07:36:00 PM

so noisy !!!

♥i went 2 work early coz da kelisa car punctured ytd... so my bro send me at 6.15 n reach there around 6.30... but i tot no ppl there.... n surprisingly kak reyna already there.... anyway.... we do things relaxingly 2day... slow slow... coz both of us went too early.... then... she say i 3.30 can go bak liao..... so called mum... she 3 come out from house... but then... she reached at 3.20.... levain can only do at 3.30.... same as culture... so i quickly do everything... then chao.... but in car..... she juz make me think tat SHE DUN EVEN UNDERSTAND ME!!! working in tis industry where got working hours de.... is u work for da sake of da company... n working hours is not an issue!! haihz.... i oso dunno how 2 say.....

then go in car... non-stop toking toking toking.... UNTIL I OSO BO MOOD!!! haihz.... then i say dun wan eat oso dun wan listen... haihz... juz so fed up.... then they came bak from a chinese doctor... come bak report 2 me tis cannot eat... tat cannot eat... like bla bla bla... then juz UP 2 U LA!!!! u wan eat ma eat lo... u dun wan eat then dun eat la.... ppl say tis say tat... u juz do wadever u wan la... ARGH!!!

SO DAMM NO MOOD LA NOW!!!!!!! GONNA SLEEP ADY!!!!