for a certain time being.... i was being grateful tat i am still single.... but at da same time i'm feeling so sad tat i am still single... i never had d aurora tat ppl have... ppl have d attraction n attention... whereas i do not.... i always think tat wad ppl wan is juz perfection... n sometimes i hope tat ppl like d inner-heart instead of d outer looks.... but till now... i still see it happening....

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haihz.... training aint' tat gud either now... it kinda sux when da head chef is around... i got scolded when i was at da wrong place at da wrong time.... n all i can do is do wadever he is nagging... n keep it inside... while ppl think it is a joke n laugh at me coz i got scolded... then when days passed... he started telling mean jokes... n every1 likes 2 joke around... not including me.... i am so innocent tat i am always da topic of da joke.... i ain't a piece of joke... i'm there 2 learn things.... n i'm still in da process of learning.... i can let u joke me for once or twice... but plz learn how 2 stop it.... but anyway they did not... n all i can do is juz smile around lo.... wan me b gl i oso cannot... coz i dunno how to... n i dun wan to either... coz it sux.... i've been telling frens bout it... they say i think too much... but sometimes... when things come in our ways.... we juz couldn't avoid thinking bout it.... certain things can joke bak... but.... it ain't easy 2 cover da inner feelings.... it's juz too hard....

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anyway... i'm bak 2 mapling... but slacking most of da times.... mayb tat's da only time when i can express my feelings 2 others bah.... coz they dunno me... i dunno them.... can express better... tat's y i din blog for quite sometime....... so anyway.... tat's all..... ciao~