Sunday, June 28, 2009 6/28/2009 08:34:00 PM

my life is full of sacrifice...

♥so... these few days there's alot happening with me n my family... let me tell some of my stories where i could remember...

i was a daughter where my father always play with me... we used 2 talk n play around 2gether... until 1 day during my pmr... pmr to me tat time was a major exam... i am always asked 2 study, study, n study... da problem with my family is tat they dunno i have been studying till late at nite... so i juz sleep late... n wake up later... but 1 day... my mum waked me up... i have tis behaviour tat if u wan me 2 do something i dun usually do... u have 2 let me know earlier... so as 2 prepare myself... n tat time... they did not... she juz wake me up n i dun have enuf sleep... early in d morning, after waking up... sure mood not gud la... so we went 2 mamak stall... i dun feel like drinking anything... i usually dun order drink oso... tat time i dun talk... coz morning i dun tok 1... so i juz shake head... a few time my dad ask me... i said i dun wan... he then scolded me... in d shop... infront of ppl... n made me cry... while eating... now... wad a dad he is??? u all no need undergo stress of exams... i still need... u all juz dun understand me la.... after eating finish... my mum can still say she had da worse breakfast ever.... then i ask u... i've been scolded coz of not ordering 1 drink... n u blame me on doing tat??? it's juz wad a joke...

ever since... i never talk 2 my dad... not like always... then at da same time... my mum was found having STD... u all wanna know wad's tat... juz google it la... my mum come n find me n tok bout it... i was like 15... u think i know wad 2 do ah??? omg.... i have 2 deal with family 2gether with my exams.... wad a life... oh ya... i 4got... in my UPSR... my mum was found having rectum cancer... again during major exams...

then come 2 my form4... i was 2 make a decision 2 leave my hometown... although i still have 1 more year 2 finish up my spm... y lei? coz my mum caught my dad cheating on her... my mum still say can stay 2gether... but she will happy meh? everyday juz have 2 look at his disgusting face n behaviour... i oso wont feel happy... come kl lo.... so in d end... make another big step... which is leaving my irresponsible dad n my beloved frens....

form5... step into new environment... but i managed it well... all study myself as tuition r so expensive...but still... dun get str8 As la.... only get 5... which is gud enuf... then come 2 culinary arts course... in between got lots of college life sacrifice la... which is never being known.... i dun even remember some.....

n now come 2 my chances.... my mum got cancer again... at her pelvic there.... n at da same time... i was having my final term exam... wad a nice timing... n bcoz of tat... i lost the apportunity 2 work with my chefs for the open day for college.... lost it... totally lost it.... i got so frust tat time... but wad 2 do.... my life is such tat... in order 2 get something... i juz need 2 sacrifice something instead... nothing comes in such a nice coincidence... n most of it... i juz have 2 deal it mentally within myself....

haihz... life is short.... i have 2 enjoy it.....