Friday, April 10, 2009 4/10/2009 09:42:00 PM

personal....

♥so i've changed my settings for my blog... laz time i used 2 let any1 2 read it... coz i am too desperate to let every1 know wad is happening around me... but then... when it comes 2 personal issues... n i dun have any1 2 tok about it... so i can't publish it here... coz any1 i mention in it might b my blog reader too... previously i tot of making tis blog private... so no1 would even get da chance 2 read it... but then... wad's da point in having a blog then?? y not juz have a diary instead...

anyway... da reason i do it tis way is cuz i dun wan some of da ppl 2 know bout wad i feel... as u all know... tat i am changed to group5 from tis term onwards... b4 da term start... i tot tat it would b a gud idea... i could get away from da ppl i dun like 2 b with... n mix with da ppl who duno me at all... so i easily accepted it after a few days of thinking bout da gud n bad... and now... tat da term had started... i find tat i hate da group1 and da group2 ppl more than i usually do... da way they start conversation is just so fake!! like "how's group5?" "how's ah khy?" "how was ur 1st day of class with group5?" ALL THOSE BULLSHIT!!! i really really dun like it... da way u ask is like group5 is da suckiest group filled with a bunch of useless ppl... da way u all call me when u all see me is like... "haha... u're in group5..." although u juz call me by my name only...

i could see da different expressions from the faces... n most of it r da "looking-down-on-you" face... n it makes me pissed off... i juz can't stand those ppl... n it's juz da 1st week... can't stand it anymore.....

n sometimes i got so pissed tat they never use their brains to even think da slightest thing... when i say "we're not allowed"... of coz it means my group la doink... then come n ask me bout ur group... how i know gak... stupid de... there r so many things which i dun like 2 see in college... i juz dun like it... got so many ppl think tat they r so smart n thinks tat ppl r stupid... y not juz look in da mirror urself?? u can go simply complain bout something from so small like an ant... till something s abstract bout ppl's character... which is so NONSENCE!!! urgh!!.. i am really pissed of so many things... i really are... i've been keeping all of it inside... coz i'm afraid tat ppl will read my blog and come n ask me stupid question tat they already know bout it!!!

i feel so nice after putting my blog restricted to certain ppl only... i feel more free... i feel better... but still.... tis year is a challenging year... n being in group5 is not as happy as i tot it will be....

haihz....