Monday, December 1, 2008 12/01/2008 06:36:00 PM

stressful day for me....

♥2day i had my last kitchen practical service class for tis term n oso for da rest of da term... coz we r only serving for term2 n term3.... so faz term3 is gonna end.... assessments n assignments r pilling up... need 2 finish my english assignment by tomorrow... mayb i'll juz try on not sleeping bah... since i like 2 torture myself so much... anyway... bak 2 da main point.... my last service... things were a bit hectic... coz da only misen-place we did on saturday was juz da butchery stuff n some peelings of shallots, onions, ginger n garlic... so can say all da vege r not cut n process... i dunno i wanna say myself as i am very bossy or i juz like 2 make myself in knowing everything... da laz service i had rights 2 b bossy... since i'm da leader.... but tis time i'm not da leader... n i can say tat i'm doing da leader stuffs.... i juz dunno tat i like 2 make things right... i like 2 b in-charge... wanna say i act smart or bossy... juz let it b bah... i dun care... mayb i do... but i still keep inside me bah... which is wad i always do... stressing myself up....

it wasn't a gud day for me oso... although i was happie tat my mum finally showed up for da buffet which i prepared... n she said it was nice... in between... things happened in da kitchen... so much of conflicts... so much of arguments... so much of comments... so much of selfish-ness... i juz couldn't stand it... it makes me pissed off... juz split seconds... n i really dun like it... it sux!! can't they juz think bout wad ppl feel?? yes... they mayb have gave u a bad impression or so... n never consider bout wad ppl thinks... then do u ever think like wad u say 2 ppl? got think bout ppl's feelings?? place a mirror infront of u before u try 2 do somethings... watch your mouth b4 u say something awful n hurtful... there's certain things tat i need not 2 voice out... there's certain things tat u need 2 reflect it onto urself...

i am juz so pissed tat when i am toking serious stuff... n ppl juz know how 2 give me a joking reaction... n i really do mean it... so when u r toking seriously... then i joke coz not knowing tat it's serious... u fk me right in d face... coz y?? coz u r not in da mood n u were pissed tat time... muz u shoot ppl although ppl r doing da right thing?? juz coz they do something for some1 u dun like... u get da rights 2 fk ppl right in da face... is tat even right? when u know how 2 say ppl fk u in da face n u got pissed... then how bout u fking ppl in da face n thinking ppl r not pissed?? even i do get scold in d face... wad can i do? keep it inside... coz i dun wanna show ppl i'm in a bad mood or angry... coz when they know i am angry or in a bad mood... they juz know how 2 come 2 me n say something very funny or wad-so-ever... WHICH I HATE IT!!! or they juz stand 1 corner... whispering... giggling.... nice ah?? izit nice?? NOT IT'S NOT!! tat is y i never like 2 show ppl my pissed face....

but hu cares rite? never had ppl care anyway......