Tuesday, December 30, 2008 12/30/2008 08:58:00 PM

training.....

♥honestly speaking.... i am a bit worried for da next 3 months i'm gonna face.... i bet it'll mostly b something which i'm expecting now..... really dunno how 2 face it when da time comes.... next week's today will b da 1st day of work..... n i'm either a lil' bit excited.... n more a bit anxious with it!!! juz so scared..... juz wish i can cope it when da time comes.......

Friday, December 26, 2008 12/26/2008 07:42:00 PM

family family family....

♥juz now... had dinner with m bro, sis-in-law n mum... i tot they will enjoy da food... coz i'm da 1 prepared it... turn out tat they started a topic on reunion for chinese new year.... well... they of coz wanna have reunion la... mayb juz withouth my dad... but i'm ady prepared tat i wouldn't have any reunion at all due 2 my training.. but they still insist it if if IF i have a day off or two... so they started toking bout my 2nd bro lo.... i know tat pampering him is out of my mum's control... after all he's still my mum's son though... n oso my bro... but my big bro is juz so ... dunno how 2 find tat word... until my mum says tat he's a cold-blooded person... n compared it 2 my dad... well... we know when 2 b cold-blooded n warm-blooded... there's no point comparing da family background of my dad n hers... or to say "genes" which r ady in our DNA.... we juz wan him 2 b independent... is tat wrong? juz need 2 b hard 1st... then later he'll juz get da realisation... i get it ady when i'm in my form4 i guess.... mayb not all... but at least i know hu am i... n how am i suppose 2 react... i changed a lil' bit but in their eyes is tat i never change... wad i was is wad i am now... aihz... so frustrated tat they think tat way though... mayb time will tell.... let time tell.......

Wednesday, December 24, 2008 12/24/2008 08:42:00 PM

my current mission is accomplished!!

♥i've been so so so into twilight tis issue... after watching da movie... i str8 go klcc 2 find da book... coz klcc got kinokuniya... so i take for granted tat might have da book i wanted... but in d end went there n din get da book... coz all OUT OF STOCK~ aihz... so made reservation... da next day... they called... say da 1st book got stock ady... so rushed 2 klcc n buy da book... so not satisfy ma... so go pyramid's popular... bought da 2nd book.... a bit a bit satisfy la... read read read... in da middle oso got go a lot of book stores 2 get d other 2 books... but all i go oso no stock... so i read da 2nd book slowly... so tat wont get so suspense....

so finally... 2day went 2 ikano's popular... juz try my luck 2 get da last 2 books... so my luck was with me... they have stocks!! yay!! so bought 2 of it... my mum pay.. haha... at least i wont get extra broked!! haha!

so my next mission.... buy a new fon babehs!!! all wish me luck lo!! but i think will only get accomplished in 3 months time bah!! juz hope 3 months is enuf!!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008 12/23/2008 11:17:00 PM

OMG!! Finally!!

♥urgh!! finally i can blog man!! da line bak at my apartment sux!!! now bak 2 damansara... at least i have a stable line... pheww.... so... term3 juz ended... so faz... gonna go training soon.... 5jan!! i'm waiting 4 u man!!!! anyway... i all da while wanted 2 blog de... but then line so cha... bo bian cannot blog... haihz... so many things i wanna say out... but then when time comes... all juz fade out.... wanna use chinese 2 write... long time din use ady....

唉！好多东西都在我脑海里转啊转。我算不算自私呢？我有些时候呢，是很像一个人静一静，但每次就是没机会！因为一定有人会不停的让我不耐烦！人是谁我就不说了，要知道就亲自来找我吧！我会告诉你的！anyway.... 就觉得自己就很自私，那我朋友也算很自私吧！因为当我想看twilight的时候，他都因为了解男朋友，怕他不够钱什么似的，就说不要看，那我呢？没想过我？就这样走出柜台？留我在那边，让我没办法就得拒绝看戏！我是不想在那儿发脾气的，但那时我真得忍无可忍了！就算你有点人性，发觉我在生气，但那又怎么样？就当作你有想过我的感受的话，就不会这么样的走出柜台！这件事就让我很生气，所以第二天，我自己一个人走路去pyramid，自己一个人看戏，而且，我还没后悔做出这个决定！哈哈！送信息给我时，其实我在里面看着戏呢！我还告诉你我不想看！真好笑！看完后，因为太好奇，所以四处早找twilight的书，一个人就去了kinokuniya找，可惜就没货。没办法的留下电话，叫他们留书给我。真高兴！第二天就call我，说书到了，但只有一本！但没关系，我买了，然后又跑回pyramid买第二本书！ohya，看戏那天，回到家时，他问我一整天做了什么，我回答一整天在家！哈哈！其实是做了一大堆的东西呢！！哎哟！现在觉得自己还满坏的，但那又有什么问题？？

还有一件事呢！但有点不想说~所以...算了咯！

好啦！不想写部落格了！大家晚安！

Saturday, December 13, 2008 12/13/2008 10:49:00 PM

so long din update...

♥well... nothing much these few days... juz enjoying my life... coz term is gonna end soon... but exams r coming even sooner... went 2 a few movies... mood swing for a couple of times... wanted 2 blog out wad i felt... but kinda dun feel like blogging it out... so tat's all..

Sunday, December 7, 2008 12/07/2008 09:40:00 PM

hmmm....

♥i find it kinda relaxing these few days... i was kinda mood swing for da couple of days... but dun feel like blogging it... coz i got sick of everything in my life... my life sucks... i'm so dumb.. so stupid... not unique.. not pretty.. not attractive.. i get da unwanted items... always being put aside... being neglected... a weirdo... so stupid... useless.. sensitive.... everything NEGATIVE!!! i am so sick of it!!! bad tempered... mood swing... arrogant (i think)... egoist... STUBBORN!!! ARGH!!!!! sick of my life!!

Monday, December 1, 2008 12/01/2008 06:36:00 PM

stressful day for me....

♥2day i had my last kitchen practical service class for tis term n oso for da rest of da term... coz we r only serving for term2 n term3.... so faz term3 is gonna end.... assessments n assignments r pilling up... need 2 finish my english assignment by tomorrow... mayb i'll juz try on not sleeping bah... since i like 2 torture myself so much... anyway... bak 2 da main point.... my last service... things were a bit hectic... coz da only misen-place we did on saturday was juz da butchery stuff n some peelings of shallots, onions, ginger n garlic... so can say all da vege r not cut n process... i dunno i wanna say myself as i am very bossy or i juz like 2 make myself in knowing everything... da laz service i had rights 2 b bossy... since i'm da leader.... but tis time i'm not da leader... n i can say tat i'm doing da leader stuffs.... i juz dunno tat i like 2 make things right... i like 2 b in-charge... wanna say i act smart or bossy... juz let it b bah... i dun care... mayb i do... but i still keep inside me bah... which is wad i always do... stressing myself up....

it wasn't a gud day for me oso... although i was happie tat my mum finally showed up for da buffet which i prepared... n she said it was nice... in between... things happened in da kitchen... so much of conflicts... so much of arguments... so much of comments... so much of selfish-ness... i juz couldn't stand it... it makes me pissed off... juz split seconds... n i really dun like it... it sux!! can't they juz think bout wad ppl feel?? yes... they mayb have gave u a bad impression or so... n never consider bout wad ppl thinks... then do u ever think like wad u say 2 ppl? got think bout ppl's feelings?? place a mirror infront of u before u try 2 do somethings... watch your mouth b4 u say something awful n hurtful... there's certain things tat i need not 2 voice out... there's certain things tat u need 2 reflect it onto urself...

i am juz so pissed tat when i am toking serious stuff... n ppl juz know how 2 give me a joking reaction... n i really do mean it... so when u r toking seriously... then i joke coz not knowing tat it's serious... u fk me right in d face... coz y?? coz u r not in da mood n u were pissed tat time... muz u shoot ppl although ppl r doing da right thing?? juz coz they do something for some1 u dun like... u get da rights 2 fk ppl right in da face... is tat even right? when u know how 2 say ppl fk u in da face n u got pissed... then how bout u fking ppl in da face n thinking ppl r not pissed?? even i do get scold in d face... wad can i do? keep it inside... coz i dun wanna show ppl i'm in a bad mood or angry... coz when they know i am angry or in a bad mood... they juz know how 2 come 2 me n say something very funny or wad-so-ever... WHICH I HATE IT!!! or they juz stand 1 corner... whispering... giggling.... nice ah?? izit nice?? NOT IT'S NOT!! tat is y i never like 2 show ppl my pissed face....

but hu cares rite? never had ppl care anyway......