Thursday, October 2, 2008 10/02/2008 05:36:00 PM

♥there was a time... where i am so desperate for love... coz i never being able 2 have some1 which will take 1 important part in my heart... coz i ever see so many couples.. no matter reality n virtual... sometimes it really make me so envious... it really do... coz all these things never happen on me... i'm not attractive... i'm not socialise... i dun mix around with ppl well... this is what i am... i can't actually change myself rite?? i only can change myself when i really wanna change... but for da time being.. i think i'll juz stick 2 myself... i dun need 2 b some1 hu i am not...

my fren once say tat reading all those romance novels will juz make us have da craving of love even more... i guess tis thing is really true... coz i juz never really love any1 before neither being loved... i can get da feeling of love from da words i read from books... at least i still know love still exists... but after reading a book... i really do wish tat i'm da character inside the story... but i guess i juz couldn't b rite?

it's so hard 2 find a person... it's even harder 2 find a perfect person... but when love comes... u still have the suffering of loving some1... neither when u r single... u still have da suffering of loneliness... as wad we know tat everything is actually suffering.... some ppl got hurt then say tat single is actually the best... coz they wouldn't bare 2 get hurt again... but there's a fren hu told me tat although breaking up is so hurting... but when they were still 2gether... the memories are actually so sweet... i could actually understand wad he was trying 2 say... n sometimes it is kinda true...

but too bad before i could experience the sweet memories... i experience the worse ones first... tat is y i actually think tat being single would actually do better in this situation... there's juz so many things tat we could not predict... but wad i can know from myself is tat mayb i am meant to b alone n always alone... coz relationships juz never work out good on me... i know it myself.... it's juz so heartache..........