Sunday, September 14, 2008 9/14/2008 05:42:00 PM

we had a little fite again...

♥laz nite... we had a little fite again... i dunno am i doing da right thing or not?? i know u guys care bout me... tat's y call my frens 2 b with me when i go meet him... but since i trust him ady... i dun wanna have any suspicious-ness towards him... coz it will really hurt him... i'll c wad i decide on tat day ba...

i dunno i'm doing it correct onot.... i always let him do da things he wanna do... like when he is buzy... i say ok... go do ur stuffs... when he go out play basketball... i say ok... go bah.... when he say he wanna maple n earn money 4 his ex housemate... i juz got nth 2 say but juz say ok.... overything i say oso ok.... i never once say 'not ok' 2 him... coz i c from my fren's experience... guys dun like 2 b controlled... so everytime i put myself 2 a limit... on not being so kpc.... but actually deep inside me... i really wan him 2 at least spend some time with me...

i never wanna miss a chance on sms him... even when i'm eating or bath... but when he eats or buzy or anything... he'll wanna stop sms n do his stuffs 1st... then in my case... i always reply him... no matter how buzy i am... sometimes i'm juz so tired... i juz wan him 2 know how i feel... but still i dare not tell him... coz he is even more sensitive than me.... even more pessimistic than me....

aihz...... i'm always da 1 saying sorry coz i dun wan tis relationship 2 juz finish like tat.... whenever he say sorry i'm always da 1 saying tat i'm da 1 to be blame... it's always like tat....

i really dunno wad i am doing now is right or wrong... i juz dun wan him u feel being controlled... not having freedom n happiness... i dun wan him 2 feel tat way......